m3, my5elf n I

26/04

2006-04-27T02:13:00.000+08:00

Omg! It has been a mth since i last blogged. Im so sry. Lol. Have been working during the 2 mths holiday. Now tt holidays r over i think its time for me to get serious n chiong my studies again. Bleah.

Juz now was watching tv n a gal was crying over a guy. It really made me v pissed off. Reason being it reminds me of the time when she cried over the phone toking to me. They really sound alike. Haiz. Watever it is, everything is history. I really miss him but he's such a jerk n betrayed my kindness. WTH. Once in awhile he'll appear in my dreams. The places the songs tt reminded me of him. Haiz, they really make me feel like crying but i've promised myself not to cry for another guy. Or at least another bastard like him. Time to get over him! Grr~

Hmm one happy thing i muz really mention. The relationship btw me n my dear lao po is really gd now. At least i can see the change in her n tt she's more happy n cheerful when we r together. I promise to not neglect her anymore be it due to the busy schedule or watever it is la. I really cherish her. 5yrs of relationship isnt easy to maintain i muz say. I hope we can last v v long, until the day i kick the bucket i wan u to be beside me. =) N yesterday went to her hse to ton. Long time nv go le. Hen huai nian. Bathed, watched tv n watched her play maple. Fell aslp on the sofa until she woke me up n asked me to go slp in her room. This time we din squezze n slp together in her bed. Her mom carried the extra matress in so ... Nvm. -.- LOL. Woke up this morning at 7am when i have lecture at 8am! Lolx~ Rushed ard the hse n took a cab to sch. Sob sob. $$ gone. Haiz. Im bored.

The past 2 mths working in dano was great fun. I really enjoyed myself n the ppl there r frndly. At least they APPEAR to b frndly. Lolx. Kind of miss working n joking with them. =( Yea. N btw i got to noe this really weird guy on my 2nd last day working for dano b4 sch reopens. We kind of clicked well. So on the last day we exchanged nums lo. He smsed me every nite to ask if he can call n chat. Really weird. =S But always nv chat la. Haha~ He unlucky ma always call when i was abt to slp or m slping le. So too bad. =p N today he smsed me ard evening time when i was napping. LOLx. So i din really hear my phone ring la. Then when i finally woke up at 9pm i saw 3 sms-es. -.- He asked me if i will accept him. -.-" i was like what the? For ur info we only got to noe each other like 4 days ago?! U mean u fell in love with me during the 2 days period when we worked together? Haha! For buddha's sake! Plz wake up frm ur dreamland n stop being so despo can? I dun really mind ur age nor ur size but its like UNBELIEVABLE. I do believe in love at 1st sight but i nv nv will encourage ppl to stead without getting to noe each other well enuff. Lolx~ I hope im not insulting him or anyth. =x He's 22 going 23, finished NS n is currently studying at NYP. He has a cute dog which i simply fell in love with. LOLX~ Haiz, watever it is im sry i dun think i will accept him la. I dun really noe much abt him anyway. Plus i think the ultimate goal for guys in this kind of relationship is SEX. Yup. All guys r jerks. They only love to see we gals as their sex toys or their slaves. Hahaha! Dun try to cheat me into becoming ur slave. Im gonna b a nun after i graduate frm poly anyway. LOL. Ok tt's all for now. I wanna slp le. NiteZ~ tC! N thnx jeremy for the impt lesson u taught me i'll nv trust any guys anymore. Bye forever i dun wanna see u anywhere in sg. N to wei ming .. i hope we can remain as frnds la. Ok bye.

27/03

2006-03-27T16:05:00.000+08:00

Whew, finally a day for myself. Haha~ The last few weeks was busy with work n going out with frnds. Buay ta han. Today finally got the chance to blog. Haiz, lots of things happened this few days. Haiz, very vex la. Tt bastard..... alright lets not tok abt it. Everyth is my fault. Im too loose too cheap. Watever.

Recently got to noe this guy on maple. He's v secretive la so he's still sort of like a stranger. Anyway he's my maple bf. HAHA. Aiya maple bf can protect u. Lol. Of coz i dun really luv him la we're juz using one another. Lol. So bad. =x

Haiz, no mood to type le la. Bye for now!

After the bastard's inicident i tell u .. im not going do anyth extra for another guy ever again. All they think is i like them. WTH?! So from today onwards i'll lead a better life. I'll be more happy n enjoy my life. I wun let tt jerkk ruin it like tt!!

To tt jerk. Dun try crawling back to me. It wun work. Although i noe u wun. But im confident tt one day ur gf will leave u. U r juz the most horrible guy on earth. I was blind to trust u so much. Bye forever.

10/03

2006-03-10T23:51:00.000+08:00

Sry was busy so din blog this few days. Here r the updates to wat i did.

Wed 8/03
Played maple till 7am n then went to slp. Woke up at 11am by wenxi's call. Was suppose to meet her at 10am. -.-" But heng she oso juz woke up. Muahaha. Coz we were playing maple till 7 ma. Haha. So packed my bag n rushed out to meet her. Was a bit late. Went to eat brunch at kopi roti. Lolx. *memories* Went to pasir ris park after tt. Muahaha! Go tanning!! Muahaha. So fun. Took many photos but all in her phone coz i brought the other phone out. Hmm, c when we meet up again then send the photos over ba. After being roasted under the sun for dunno how many hrs, we went to bath. After bathing wanted to go blading but stupid us the shop close le. -.-" So bo bian took bus back to white sand to enjoy or dinner. Muahaha. Dinner was at swensens. Not too bad la but v full. *piggie* After tt jiu take train home le. So damn tired. Slpt on the train. *Yawn* ZZZzzz

Thurs 9/03
Working at northpt. Quite fun la. We gossip gossip. Lolx. It was great. Sales was bad =x but i seriously had fun working there. Unlike cwp.... Went back home. Suddenly feel v sad. Played maple awhile n quit le. PMS-ing. -.- Think of him. Read our past conversations n cried. I dun understand. I really don't. LOST.

Fri 10/03
Today went to changi airport to c my mami n my younger sis off. Had lunch together at terminal 2 staff canteen. The place with lots n lots of beautiful memories. Haiz. But the place changed quite a lot. I think they renovate it ba. Then got new drinks stall n mag stall. =( Even the place oso change le.... Ppl will change too. Haiz. After tt papa drove me back to bp n i took a bus to cwp frm there. Went to work in a v rotten mood. Today the whole shop was in a mess coz jason came down n shifted the clothes. Headache ar. Sianz. Im like a dead walking corpse. Wth. Tml working at cwp again. Gotta go slp liao. NiteZ~ No maple today. No mood. Juz sent him an email. Hope he'll reply. Tt's all.

Time out~ 12:26AM

rot rot rot

2006-03-07T07:35:00.000+08:00

Muahaha, the time now is 7:35AM. Cool erh? Yup din slp, coz was mapling all thru the nite. Damn sianz nth to do. No work, nobody jio me out so maple whole nite lo. Lvl 20 le. Not bad la. But not as perverted as WIND! He siao one lo. 1 week 36 lvls. -.- I 4 days 20 lvls. Haiz, sianz.

Rot at hme the whole day today. Woke up only at 8:30pm. LOL. Juz slp n slp n slp. Ask my lao po out but she booked le. Sianz. Maple ba. Haiz, im craving for ice cream. WTH. Fat liao cannot eat!!! ARGH!

He still yet to call. Still no news of him. Gary nv block me le but i nv tok to him. Dun plan to. Their business will nv be my business ever again. I've already drawn the clear line le. Haiz.

Back to maple le. Nth to blog. Wanna change my skin leh but lazy la. ByeZ~ tC ppl.

tag

2006-03-06T04:04:00.000+08:00

the rules: -the tagged victims list 8 different points of their perfect lover/partner, mentioning the gender of said partner. -tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment on the post letting them know they have been tagged. if tagged before, no need to contribute.

Oh man, alright i'll do it. My perfect lover must have a nice body! Wahaha. Not too thin, not fat n plz have some muscles la [6 packs wld b great!]. It would be nice if he's ard 1/2 a head taller than me. Of coz he muz noe how to take care of me n dote on me la. Ah! He must not be too quiet. Abit of joker type wld b gd. 5th wld b he muz be understanding n noe when not to provoke me n when n how to cheer me up. Haha~ Tough ba since nowadays guys r so damn block headed. [Perfect lover ma, so im juz imaginating(got such word hor?)] I dun demand him to place me 1st before everything else but at least i muz noe tt i stand a place in his heart lo. He muz nv neglect me. 7th I wld love to have some surprises once in awhile. I wld hate to go for boring date routines. Changes once awhile is gd. Lastly, he muz get along with my family members lo. Very important ma. Got 1 more pt. =x V V V impt! He wld be even more perfect if he's rich. Hehe^^ =p [OMG, slap me plz]

Decided not to tag anyone. Haha~ If anyone who is reading this decides to give a thought can juz imagine tt i tagged u ba. Haha. I doubt anyone is reading this anyway. ByeZ~

2006-03-06T03:37:00.000+08:00

Well, sat n sun worked at CWP dano. Super tiring coz long time nv work le. Haha. Last nite came home online awhile jiu slp le. Din even play maple. Was too tired aching all over. =x Haiz, old liao. Lolx. Tonite slping early too. Erm, not really early but earlier than usual. Hehe.

Suddenly feel so lonely. So moody. So tired. Haiz. Was reading those testi my frnds wrote to me. Miss those days we used to hang out together. Time flies. Ppl come n go. We get to know each other, hang out n became close frnds n then for some reason we got seperated n nv contact each other again. This is life. I guess we juz have to get used to it. There's no forever. Nth last forever. Everything has its own expiry date, same goes for frndship and other things in life. I guess we juz have to let go of the past n look forward into the future.

Tml not gonna go out le. At first meeting gabby n pearlyn for badminton session but cancelled le. =( Nvm, next time will have chance de. =) Haiz, i feel tt im wasting my holidays like this. Slp, eat n play computer. Rotting sia. =( I wanna work! Wanna earn $$!!! I luv $$ muahaha! SianZ~

Wat to blog leh? Nth much happen. No news frm him. I think gary oso scared le. Haiz, suan le ba. Gai fang shou de shi hou jiu fang shou ba. Let this whole holiday b a soul searching period for me. Let me grow n find my real happy self. The one tt is hidden somewhere in me. I wanna change! I believe i can n i will! Gimme some time.

If one day i were to go missing .. dun bother to come n look for me .. i nd to b alone n do some soul searching. I nd some time for my wounds to heal. I nd some time to recover n gain back my confidence. Haiz. Wo kai shi fen bu qing.. dui wo hao de ren shi hao ren hai shi yao shang hai wo de ren ... ='(

Time out~ 3:56AM

FUN!!! =D

2006-03-04T05:05:00.000+08:00

Yest was slacking day. Slpt n slpt like a pig. Was suppose to go bowling with gab n pearl but coz of last min cancellation i rot at hme. I juz hate to c the current state im in. Argh, watever. Oh ya, maple is back to my life. Haha~ Coz my lao po tempt me ma. Bored~

Today super fun. Im really happy n xing fu to b blessed with such nice frnds. (Gab n pearl) Yeah, they're nice ppl. ^^ Im really grateful to them coz w/o them my world is like so dull la. Furthermore, im really glad they accept me into their er ren xi jie. Honestly its tough to hang out in grps of 3s, but we did it n we are really happy. (I hope they are, coz i m =D) *LUV THEM* Hee^^

Was suppose to meet them at woodlands today at 11:30am. But okay, i admit im late again. Haiz, i find myself so horrible. Ppl r so willing to invite me to their outings but yet i made them wait for me. I really ought to hang myself upside down n get a gd smack in the butt. I hate myself. I know its wrong yet i do it. I know the whole truth but yet i choose not to accept reality. Haiz, im really a bad bad gal. My existance only bring ppl trouble trouble n more trouble. =(

Okay, back to today's outing. Only managed to rch woodlands at 12:15pm. Yes, a whole 45mins late! C wat i mean? I'm terrible. We took train down to raffles place for a job interview. It was a really terrible experience i tell u. The ppl there are so weird. 1st the interviewer who makes up many weird weird scenerios trying to persuade us to join her company. Tt's not all, she kps emphasizing on how their company grew frm nth blah blah blah. -.-" We r not interested la. After tt we went to old chang kee for lunch. We were quite suprise tt actually they do offer set lunches n stuffs. Cool erh? So we decided to try. The food was okay la. Gab ordered sambal squithead. I find it too spicy so i din eat it. Then gab n pearl find it not nice so the whole plate was there quite untouched. Haha. N then this auntie [she works there] came along. She look at the big plate n said. "Y dun wanna eat? So wasteful. Eat la." [smth like tt la, forgotten le] Then we were like erm.. too spicy. "Add rice la, u wan? Eat with rice not spicy le." We were like erm -.- nvm la auntie. DiaoZ~ After tt we quickly finish our food n siam le. Haha. Felt like we were somewhere in the other part of the world. Haha. I dun think i'll b going to raffles place for no gd reason unless i have to. Lol. Strange ppl.

After our lunch we went to yio chu kang. We spent the whole afternoon n evening there. Haha, cool man! =p 1st we played arcade. Then we played bowling. Followed by billard. And lastly back to arcade!!! I tell u its really fun la. The part i enjoyed most was during the shooting game we played at the arcade. Lol. Coz the game has got 3 stages n we [pearl n me] wanted to win it n guess wat? We spent abt $10 bucks on it la! U might find it little but read on. 1 game is only 40cents per person. -.- But it was damn fun. We were like so excited n kp running to n fro to change for coins. Haha. U wldn't wanna noe how much we spend altogether. *shh*

When we finally decided to go hme, we took train back to woodlands. Wanted to buy sweettalk de bubbletea but =( sadly they dun wanna sell us. Haha, no la is no more le coz we rch there quite late ma. 9+ shops closing le. Haiz, tml have to go back there again. Working at dano. Hehe then can drink my bubbletea le. =p Tell u a secret, i dun eat meals when i work. I drink bubbletea. =p They fill my stomach n is nice! Yum yum! I love pearl milk tea. My FAV!!! Hehe^^ Okay time to slp. Gd nite everybody. Tml nd to work. Gd, can earn $$ n kp my mind off him.

Thanks hy for being there for me. Haha. I muz say u really helped me a lot. Without u i wldn't have survived. I've sorted out my feelings n my thoughts. Dun worry, i'll be fine. Juz gimme some time n i will forget him. Thanks jie mei! WAHAHA!! =p

Time check~ 5:39am O.O

One last thing b4 i go. I lost my cow. *sobZ sobZ* The cow gab n pearl bought for me. ='(
MISSING

thinking

2006-03-02T02:22:00.000+08:00

Today woke up at 12:30pm. Juz in time to prepare for sch. Haiz, but dunno y i got this feeling i used to have during the old days. I dun wan to wake up n go to sch! So i took a walk ard the hse n went back to slp. I didn't set my alarm, i purposely wanted myself to slp through the whole screening session. However, sad to say, im no longer the old me. I laid on my sis bed. Closed my eyes and forced myself to slp. Minutes pass. Im still awake. My mind is working. Thinking ...
Haiz, now i hate to slp coz i juz can't slp! Every night i stare at the blank white ceiling unable to slp. My brain kps working. Thinking n thinking. When i close my eyes i see him him him. All over!!! His sms-es his face. Everywhere!!! ARGH! Haiz....
Went to sch in the end. Dragged myself there. Sat quietly in a corner during class. I looked at ziling. Somehow i feel strange. I dunno y. Maybe becoz we are not as close as we used to b. I dun blame her bcoz of her busy schedule, i understand. Stoned there for a few mintues. After tt class was fine. And juz like any other normal sch days, aAB left school together.
Did a lot of walking today. We walked to opp beauty world for lunch. Korean food. Not bad but most of the food is spicy, not to my liking. Ordered smth non spicy. Rice .. rice wat again? Forgotten. Managed to finish the whole bowl although i dun really feel like eating. Nice la. Most probably will go back again ba. After tt we walked to beauty world centre then beauty world plaza, bukit timah centre and finally bukit timah plaza. Pearlyn wanted to get some brouchers for a tour to korea. Cool. I wld love to go on a holi too. But ....
At home nth much happened. Sis bf came. Watched tv n chatted on msn. Haiz. Pester hong yi for a very very long time. Ha. Sry ex-kor. Toked to gary too. I dunno wat to think n i dun wanna think. His assurance didn make me feel better neither did i feel worst. Neutral. Still as worried, still as concern. Haiz, enough of thinking gal. Time to slp! Its thurs le. So fast. Jan, Feb .. now March le. His promise? Nvm, i'll wait. No matter how long i'll still wait. Bcoz u r my most precious kor. I cherish u. I look upon u as my blood related kor but .... nvm. I'll wait. I believe u'll contact me again one fine day. *I miss U*

we're one crazy couple =p

2006-03-01T01:26:00.000+08:00

LOL, we're one crazy couple. Hehe^^ U'll find out y. Read on. =)
Today slpt one whole day coz im juz so lazy to wake up. =x Finally drag myself off bed when my lao po called at 5+pm. Came online n we chatted. Then decided to meet for movie haha! At 1st wanted to go jurong pt catch the 7.10 fearless but i find it a bit rush so we finally decided on 9.35pm fearless at .... TAMPINES! Lolx~ We're crazy. =P So after dinner went to meet her at jurong station 8pm. Lol. Rched tampines at ard 9pm. Was faster than we thought. Haha, ard 50mins like tt nia. Went to buy tickets then went food hunting! Muahaha. Tt silly gal la nv eat dinner jiu rush out le. Bought popcorn too. =) The show was nice. Very impressive ba. Haha. Yeah, n quite violent too. Breaking of bones blah blah blah. Hmm, after the show my lao po wanna listen to jay's song n find his name on the credits. -.- So we waited lo. So paiseh, the cleaner behind waiting for us coz the rest of the ppl all siam le. By the time we rch the mrt station no mrt liao. -.-" Juz in time to hear the announcement tt the last train to boonlay has left. -.- So bo bian went to take bus lo. Took 969 back to woodlands. Not bad la, quite fast. Not as long as 67. Maybe bcoz its at nite, or mayb bcoz im not alone. Dunno, haha nv time. At woodlands waited for the last train to kranji, and took a taxi home frm there. $9+ so xin tong. But nvm! We enjoyed ourselves! =D Hehe^^ Thanks lao po!! I love u!!! U're the best!!! Hee^^

Im out~ 1:40AM

27

2006-02-28T00:22:00.000+08:00

Today 27 feb 2006. 4mths down the road i'll b turning 18. Gd or bad? I dunno. Wat i noe now is he's still not replying n i dun plan to call coz i wldn't noe wat to say when he ans. Haiz, juz wanna meet him out 1 last time b4 he gets real busy with his business stuff. I guess there is no hope le la. Jus wondering 4 mths later will he still rem who m i or wat special day tt is. Let's leave it to fate, i believe he's really upset. =(

Today woke up by lao po's sms. Was suppose to go meet gabby n pearlyn for badminton session but bcoz it wasn't arranged last nite so i slpt tru it. They were already there playing when i woke up n read the msg. Nvm then. Went to meet my lao po instead. She bought her mp3 le [FINALLY]. After tt we took a bus down to clementi kbox for our singing session! =D Yeah, it was fun. Really enjoyed myself although i was quite tired. But din sing as much as i used to. Sent him a msg but he din reply. We left at ard 11+. Rched hme at 12, on my computer n here i m typing away. K laz, time to bath. TC ppl~

I wish n wish tt one day he'll call. When will the day arrive? Continue praying hard ba. *zi yao xiang xing, jiu yi ding hui shi xian*

Happy day? Wat is happiness?

2006-02-27T03:46:00.000+08:00

Time check. 3:46AM. Yes i shld be in bed now snoring away but wat m i doing now? I've slpt enough. Woke up at 2.30pm today. Nth much happened juz slacked ard n let my thoughts fly ard. I've cried enough b4 i went to bed but i was still crying after i woke up. Haiz. Decided to give him a call n tt's when i found out his hp was off. -.- Seriously i panicked. What happened to him?! Went online hoping he was there but... ok, u can guess it too. Spoke to his best frnd instead but he didn't wan to tell me anything. =( So i signed off, played yang cheng ling's songs again n cried. -.-" I dunno how long it took me to fall aslp again. Not long after, my parents came home n i had to wake up. Ate my breakfast cum lunch cum dinner n watched tv lo. Came online again at dunno wat time. Read the email his best frnd sent. I tell u it was like a load off my shoulder to know tt he's alive. But it added on another load on my shoulders. The news is he broke off with his galfrnd n nds time for himself. Haiz, i dunno wat was the reason but i seriously hope it has nth to do with me. They used to quarrel becoz of me but .... haiz now i gotta find out y they break, but m i too kpo? I guess so. Haiz, let him cool down 1st ba if he wanna contact me he'll if im the cause then ..... byebye ='( *prays hard*
Im really at a lost. There's nth i can do to help. Waiting is the only way out. HAIZ~ Im not exactly happy abt their break-up. I noe he love her becoz im always the one being sacrificed when it comes to choosing b/w me n her. Haiz, im in no position to say anyth la. Juz hope he will recover soon. Take care wor.

holidays r here

2006-02-26T02:20:00.000+08:00

Finally our sem has ended. Last week was still quite busy with our 3D project but tt's over too! Hmm, now i really need to find work le. I nd to do something to occupy myself. Haiz. Actually today wanted to meet my lao po but she rejected my date. -.- haiz, it juz seems like everybody is leaving me. She told me she start work on mon but dunno y she say today oso got work. -.- Haiz, it jus seems to me tt she's lying n hiding things frm me. Forget it. Im fated to be alone so i'll adapt to living alone. Holidays r here. I used to love holidays but now i really hate holidays. Haiz, lets juz hope i find some work soon. Finished watching er muo zai shen bian le, haiz jus make me fantacize more. Alright time to hybernate. The only way to forget him is to shut myself away. I very much wanted to sms him but i noe there'll be no ans. Shld i juz call him? Wat shld i say? *i miss him* ='(

Listening to yang cheng ling's songs now. Can't help thinking back. Thw sweet memories we had. The sms-es, the long calls, the long msn chats, the movies, the old changi airport days. Haiz, they're all in the past. I kept thinking, if i knew him b4 her wld things b different? Haiz, but wat's the pt thinking abt it? The fact is they knew each other way b4 me. I know frm the start that they love each other but y?! Y did i fall in love with him?! No, m i really in love with him? Or m i jus too dependent on him? Haiz, i dunno y things always have to turn out like this. Is he purposely avoiding me? But he told me he'll be busy n warned me b4 hand. BUT WHY? Why is he occupying my mind 24hrs a day?! Haiz, i dunno. I dunno wat to do. I juz wanna c him. I wanna ask him. I wanna talk to him. N i nd him. I dunno wat to do?! Can someone tell me wat to do? Haiz.

Maybe its not him. Maybe the prob lies on me. Maybe i expected too much. Maybe i was thinking too much. Maybe im too dependent on him. Maybe im taking this far too seriously n expect him to play along. Maybe i have been watching too much drama recently n kp thinking that reality n drama is the same. Haiz. Im desperate already. I dun understand y. He said he nv lied to me. Yeah true. But wat abt those promises? Those EMPTY promises? Haiz. Its ture he didn't sayhe promise he'll bring me out but he said he will when he's free. N in my heart i noe whenever he say tt it means tt will nv come true. But i can't help waiting. Waiting n waiting for the day to come. But all this while i've been waiting for a dream that will nv come true. 26 dec 2005, was our last outing. 30 jan 2006, was the last time we talked on the phone. 12 feb 2006 was the last time he sms-ed n chat with me online. After tt, there was no sign of him. I sms him a few times but there was no reply. Did he see my msg? I guess so, but y? Y didn't he even reply. Was it on purpose? Haiz. I dunno.

JEREMY, WHERE R U?! Plz dun tell me that u were juz playing with me all along. Haiz, but i noe if she ask u nv to contact me again u'll do as she say. Haiz, i'll take tt as an ans. I was wrong in the 1st place. It was all my fault. I was the 3rd party. I'll quit. I promise i'll leave ur life. From now on, u'll be erase off my mind. I will not pester u anymore. *i promise* With her ard i noe there wun b a place for me. Its better for us like tis. My existance will only bring u trouble. N in times of trouble, u'll sacrifice me. I noe it. Coz u care abt her feelings more. Im juz nth in ur eyes. I realised this long ago but i juz refuse to admit it. I've experienced it too many times n each time u failed to prevent me frm getting hurt. I really regretted forgiving u. Haiz. There is far too many wounds caused by u. They'll take a long time to heal but im sure im strong enough.

I can survive without guys. Guys will only bring me sadness. The last guy i fell in love with had changed me so much. I've been hurt enough. The pain is unbearable. Tears have dried. My heart is dead. Plz not let there be a 3rd guy who will cause such great impact on my life. I've not yet forgotten the pain ive gone through in my secondary sch life. One day, i'll grow up. Gimme some time n i'll wipe off all my tears n smile happily. At the mean time, i jus feel like knocking my head agst the wall. It wld be good if i were to forget everything.

2月20日[孤单的一天]

2006-02-20T20:45:00.000+08:00

hmm, today is dharsh's bday. Happy Birthday gal!! i miss u^^

Woke up at 10am today. Haha, quite early ba. Went to sch to hand up our audio assignment. After that took 67 to find someone. Hmm, actually not really find the person la just to go there to settle some things. It was a long journey frm sch all the way to tampines. On the bus, my mind was flooded with images, images of our past memories. Haiz, they are all in the past le. Actually i still dun quite understand y is he ignoring me but i guess its time for me to get over and done with. So i took the 1hr+ journey to his hse. Found his door and hung his thing on his door. Left the building and walked to the bus stop. I kp hoping and hoping that he'll appear and call my name but.... nvm. Waited and waited for the bus but somehow it took quite a long time to come. Somehow, i left my heart n my mind at his door step so had to head back. Once again, i stood in front of his door but the thing was gone. Perhaps he was in the hse all along? Perhaps his parents brought it into the hse? Haiz, i dunno la. Forget it, since i've decided to take this step, i musn't turn back. =(

After loitering ard for awhile, took 67 back to cck. Another 1hr+ long ride. Very tiring buay ta han le so slpt awhile. Rched cck nth to do so walked ard lo. Walk n walk jiu walk dao le cinema le. -.- So i c the timing n decided to catch I Not Stupid Too lo. Hmm, really very touching and funny. I couldn't stop crying especially since im watching it alone. How i wish he was there. Haiz, nvm. Im born to be a loner so i have to grow to like this loneliness. Sometimes 1 person is better than a grp of ppl. A grp of ppl always cannot make up their mind, neither can they fork out time to meet. 1 person so free, wanna go where jiu go where. Haha! FREE!! -.- Haiz.

I not stupid too is quite a nice story. The content wise is very good but the shot sizes they use really-.- haha, i dunno la i find them not very nice lo. The starting part la, behind behind better ba or maybe becoz i nv pay attention to it ba. Haha. I really hope to watch it again but i hope my 2nd time will be with ................. forget it. Time to wake up!!!!! GRRR~

Haiz, wat else is new? im still thinking and thinking is he really tt busy? or izzit becoz of some other reasons? i really really wanna noe. who can tell me? i hate to play such guessing games. *SIGH*

a bunch of pea brain-ed creatures

2006-02-19T01:15:00.000+08:00

plz plz!! somebody plz kill me!!! i had enough!! enough of all the guessing games! i dunno wat the hell is on his mind! n im tired of thinking and worrying. haiz. i dunno wat to do. y is my life like this?! Y?Y?Y?Y?Y?Y?????????????????????????????
ARGH! wanna pull out all my hair, take a knief n slash myself. tis is so idiotic. lets juz put an end to it.................... ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok, everything will be fine. dun worry everything will be fine after my heart is dug out. after i can feel no warmth and no love, everyth will b alright.
guys are bastards. nice guys dun exist. they appear nice but do things tt are extremely evil. i've had enough. no bfs no daddys no kors no dis no guys for me!!!!

NP open hse!!

2006-02-02T15:23:00.000+08:00

*Yawn* im back from sch! Haha~ Today dunno y such a short day sia. Went to sch for comgraph nia. -.- Was late AS USUAL! =x Hehe. Woke up only at 9.30 -.-" Damn tired ar. Slpt at 4.30am coz papa woke up to watch soccer, so i have to siam lo. Still stuck at my 3/4 unfinished essay. Lolx~ Hmm, today np open house! So fun lo, c so many ppl ard. =) Lolx~ The joke of the day was we manage to cheat some yummy waffles from the er .. life science course ppl i think. Haha! So funny la! Tt ziling cannot stop luffing sia. *shakes head* N the thing is, she was wearing our film n media studies' t shirt lo! Haha~ I got nth to say sia but it was damn funny la. =p

Hmm, went to chou chou re nao awhile jiu came hme le. Nth to do ma so come home early to finish my essay lo. Finish le jiu can slp liao!!! Jia you!!! Hmm, sem ending soon!! 2 more weeks!!

Assignments n projs left:
1. Socpsy journal (3/4 done)
2. Proposal essay (1/4 done)
3. Audio thesis paper (not done) (this is gonna kill, 18 pages man!)
4. Socpsy ass. tut presentation
5. Audio radio commercial (left mixing n post production)
6. Locvid (editing n post production)
7. Comgraph: 3D animation (not started)
8. Erm, tt's all i guess.
9. +++ written n practicle tests!!!! (ok, i hate this)

HELP ME!!!

2006-02-02T03:54:00.000+08:00

Omg! Im dying soon! All these work piling up! This sux! Haha, but dunno y suddenly got so much energy to pia everything. Now is 3:56AM le but im still up chionging my stupid socpsy essay. WTH. M 3/4 through le but haiz ... its socpsy leh! Think will take me another hour to finish ba. Haha~ Heng tml morning no socpsy tut, but got COMGRAPH!!! Im so dead! Haven been slping enough these days. =x [Lolx~ no la i juz slpt like more than 15hrs on tues lo =S] Aiya watever la the sooner i finish the better ar then can go out. Hehe^^ I wanna watch movie!! I wanna watch i not stupid 2, fun with dick n jane, geisha and the shi er sheng xiao thingy. Long long long.................. time nv watch movie le!! AHHHH!!!! NO LIFE NO LIFE!! Still got so many things to do!!! This sem is really crazy lo!! Holiday still muz go back sch to pia projs. They stupid la, set so many datelines after sem end. Still got tests!!! OMG i going crazy!! I c many stars! The hse is spinning!! omg!! Im so dead =x

Skipped lesson (AGAIN!)

2006-02-01T07:50:00.000+08:00

Alright, the time now is 7:51am. I shld b on my way to sch right now but ... i skipped lesson again! This is bad, this is really bad but i can't help it. I juz dun feel like going to sch! Wat's more its for boring sports and wellness -.- Haiz, suan le. Maybe i might go for the make-up class this fri. Mayb, juz maybe. Ok back to work. N this time i mean it. START WORKING LA GAL! STOP WASTING PRECIOUS TIME!!! Ok tC everyone.

Another wasted day

2006-02-01T00:59:00.000+08:00

ARGH!! WTH m i doing?! Y m i wasting my time like tt!! There're so many things left for me to do but yet im not taking any actions at all. *Slaps myself* Plz wake up now b4 its all too late!! ARGH!!! WAKE UP! WAKE UP NOW N DO!!!! ok .. bye~

D E P R E S S E D

2006-01-31T02:03:00.000+08:00

Alright, im currently in a v depressed mood. Dunno why felt damn emotional tonite so began to pour out my thoughts n feelings to my kor. The more i tok the more i feel like my whole life is so damn meaningless lo. I thought back to the things i have done. The things tt happened to me in my entire life. My feelings and thoughts for certain things. I came to realise that my life is so empty n so dull. There are many things which my life is lack of. Love esp. Yest was surfing through frndster saw a lot of happy couples' photos. Read a lot of sweet msges they left for each other. Haiz, so xian mu. How i wish i had someone by my side too. Suan le ba. Given up hope le. Everytime i c a couple together i feel all kinds of mixed emotions. Haiz, it juz seems like i've lost myself inside my own mind n my heart gets numb until i cldn't feel anything at all.

Haiz, y m i so hopeless? Y isn't anybody out there who truely understands me? Who was there when i needed a shoulder to cry on? Who was there to show me the way out when i was lost in my own mind? Sad to say, nobody. There was juz me, myself n i. I had to fight agst myself, cry to myself n cheer myself up. I noe i have many frnds who cares abt me but i tried toking to some of them it juz didn't help. I cldn't really show my true self in front of them. I dunno y but the real weakling didn't come out frm within me. Haiz.

When im out with my frnds im cheerful, always luffing blah blah blah. But at home, im short tempered, nasty, grumpy etc etc. This was smth i realised recently. For the past 17 yrs of my life i've always thought tt my personality which most of my frnds descibed me as would b almost the same as how my parents feel abt me. How wrong i was. Yuan lai all these while i've been seen as a bad bad problematic child. Watever la i dun wanna care le. U can kick me, beat me, cane me for all i care best wld be to kill me n release me frm all these sufferings. I've had enough.

Frnds? Wat r frnds to u? Frnds means a lot to me. They can greatly affect the way i think i feel etc etc. They're the only grp of ppl who can paint smiles on my face. Haiz, but ur frnds have other frnds too. They can't stick ard u 24/7. U can't expect them to noe everything abt u juz like u dun exactly noe everything abt them. Some frnds would rather kp things in their hearts than to let u noe wat's bothering them. Some frnds will call u n cry over the phone or shout over the phone with joy. Some frnds appears as though u're v close but back stab u behind ur back. There're all kinds of frnds in this world. I believe i have the best bunch of frnds in the whole wide world but im not a gd frnd. My self reflection is a total disaster.

All in all im tired of my life. How i wish someone will smash a glass bottle on my head or knock me down blah blah blah. If im dead mayb there wun b so much troubles. Maybe other ppl's life will improve too. Haiz. How i wish tt when i close my eyes my heart will stop beating too. Im tired. Really tired .....

B O R I N G~

2006-01-30T01:22:00.000+08:00

Haiz, today is chu yi. Every yr de tis day i feel super bored lo. I dun like to go visit my father side de relatives. Its super bored la! We dun gamble. All we do is eat n watch tv. No toking oso. Ok la, the adults tok among themselves lo i juz sit there n let the tv entertain me. This yr really extreme case, i actually fell aslp! OMG! Can u imagine how bored to death i was? The adults there all v fake oso lo. Speak behind ppl's back de. Worst of all is my grandmother n my auntie, both live under the same roof but always quarrel. Haiz, i dun wanna care plz leave me out! But thnx to papa i was stuck in the middle when i sent my grandmother home tt nite after reunion dinner. This sux. I hate festivals! All my frnds r busy n im stuck with my family! ARGH! I wldn't mind if it was juz my family members alone la. Haiz, sometimes i wish i had a bf then mayb during such festivals i wun feel so bored n left out le. =( Suan le, tis kind of thing cannot force de ma. Juz so xian mu my sis n tong.

Tml will b visiting my mother's side de relative le, hope will b better ba. Haiz, tis really sux plz plz plz let time fly! I wan my frnds back n i want my kor back! They're always so busy during the holidays esp my stupid kor. Alright tired le. NiteZ~ tC! [actually i spent more than half a day slping le but i juz feel like slping]

I miss him. It has been more than a mth le...

CNY

2006-01-29T01:52:00.000+08:00

Alright, I've finally decided to blog again. Lolx~ Hmm, today is CNY shld b a happy day but ... alright lets not tok abt those unhappy things. I've given up. Ppl juz dun understand me.

These few mths lots of things have happened. Things have changed, A LOT. Sch is fun! Haha, yea life in sch is getting better. This sem is really busy but yet I had lots of fun with FOCUSLaAB [with a missing L most of the time?]. Haiz, suan le.

If u r interested, FOCUSLaAB Creations is a 'company' set up by my fellow zhu peng gou you. LOL! L= ziling, a= ngaihui, A= pearlyn and lastly B= gabby! They're one great bunch of ppl, really enjoyed their company, VERY MUCH. =D Thnx guys!

This sem is really busy. Lots of projects, shootings, editings etc etc. So glad tt everything is ending soon! Hehe. All our time revolves only ard sch work. I can hardly find the time to go shopping!! Oh ya, and tt reminds me tt I haven went for CNY shopping. -.- Tt means I'll have to wear old clothes then. *sObZ*

Hmm, long time nv blog le i oso dunno where i shld start frm. Lol~ Life at hme leh? Hmm, now i seldom come home early le. Haha~ Long time nv watch channel 8's drama shows le. Hmm, once in awhile will also stay over at their houses to rush projects and have fun! =D Home??? I guess now my home is juz like a hotel room. Haha. For sleeping de. I dun care abt things at home le. I've washed my hand off any family affairs. I've had enough.

Well tt leaves me with one last person to mention? Shld b ba. He does not play a major role in my life but he exists. Im not too sure abt my existance to him la. Tis he, is none other than my stupid kor lo. Haiz, he's the one who brings me happiness yet the one who sends tears rolling down. I care too much abt his thoughts n i can't stop worrying abt him. Sometimes he treats me real gd but sometimes he's juz so cold. Haiz, i dunno la. Had enough guessing games. Juz can't figure out wat he's thinking abt. No matter wat, he'll always b my one n only kor who i'll love with all my heart. The way i love my jie. [I'll forgive n forget all bcoz of u]

Ok, tis sux. My entry is like so damn messy. Conclusion? I shall not blog again. CyaZ~

Sch reopen liao

2005-11-03T19:44:00.000+08:00

Haiz, so fast sch reopen liao. My airport job oso finish le. Sad. Honestly i really enjoy it very much. Thinking back, how i wish my holidays were longer and my working hrs were longer. Haiz, but no matter how long, time still passes by in the blink of an eye. Haiz, happy times are always so short. =(

Bascially i got to know quite a lot of frnds. Pearlyn is definitely the one whom i got really close with. Its really amazing how we cld become gd frnds so quickily. I remember that in the past we seldom talk. But in tt whole mth, we go for lunch together, gossip together, see guys together. Haha! Really FUN! =D Jeremy is the next closest frnd ba. He's a nice guy. Fun to be with. Always bully me de but one sad thing is, he's attached[it doesn't mean tt i have fallen in love with him hor]. But nvm, he's my kor now hehe so to me tt's all i asked for. Hope we can be kor n mei forever ba. =)

1st week of sch i've already missed SW. Lolx~ Blame my blurness. Haiz, another long semester to go. Super sianz. I wanna faster graduate n go out n work!

*Tt's all, super short entry juz to show tt im alive n kicking. Im seriously too lazy to type any longer. NiteZ~

Im sorry

2005-10-15T17:33:00.000+08:00

2 my dearest darling, the person i cherish the most on earth:

HeyZ, recently have been quite busy. Haiz, i noe im neglecting u but i seriously can't find extra time to pei u. My current job is really tiring. Have to wake up early n go home late. The worst thing is its not a one week job but a one mth job. Haiz. I dunno wat to do. I noe u're sad. But wat shld i do? I really miss u a lot but my 24hrs is just too little for me. If 1 day has 48hrs, 24hrs will be spent together with u. No doubt abt it. I dunno wat else to say but just to let u noe i really care and miss u as much as u miss me. I really wish n look forward to our next date. U will always be in my heart, i might not say anything but i care. Hope u understand n dun kp saying tt im busy, dun wanna disturb me then go off le. I feel very bad. Haiz, i dunno wat to do just hope u understand. NiteZ darling, hope to see u soon. =) *mIsS yA L0aDs* *mUaCkZ* *hUgS* Dun ever gif up on me.

Your Dearest Lao Po.

Changi Airport

2005-10-14T17:06:00.000+08:00

Hmm, today is my 10th day of working at the airport le. So fast sia. It was like still yesterday when i reported late on my first day of work. =x Haiz, dun say le la all bcoz of a damn book. [My mum's bus guide.] I trusted it so much that i ended up walking a long route under the hot burning sun n to come face to face with the fact that THE BUS NUM DOES NOT EXIST ANYMORE. -.- Haiz, wat else can i say? In the end took 961 down to woodlands n change bus lo. The thing is i left my hse super early at 12:30!!!! N i only rched at 3.30pm. -.-" Really nth to say. Pearlyn showed me ard n stayed a little longer to make sure i was ok with things. So nice of her. ^^ But i din manage to sell any on the 1st day coz there simply isn't much stock!! WTH. Fancy them having a roadshow without any stock! [Actually have la, only nano plus.] Sianz, like tt u expect us to sell? But pearlyn sold a nano plus.

The stocks are SLOWLY coming in. Sales getting better n better too, but im still waiting for the 1st vision buyer. Haha, lets see who gets to sell it. Anyway time for me to go will update soon in more details. NiteZ~ tC! *mIsS everyone esp my dear hehe^^*

Waiting for my next off day on 23rd oct. Haiz, still long ar. Btw i lost my ez-link card. DAMN!

Dano

2005-10-14T16:49:00.000+08:00

So sry. Very long nv come post entries le. Hehe. Lazy la. =x Every muscle in my body is aching now. =S Haiz, think coz i stay up the whole nite ba. I dunno leh. So pain. ='(

Stayed up the whole nite to chiong maple. Long time nv train my mage le. Haiz, everyone else 40+ le. Wind 60 liao!!! Me leh? Just 33 nia. So sad. But really no time to train ma. Need to work. Need to slp. Need to pei lao po. Wahaha!

Hmm let me share my work experience with u ba. ^^ 1stly, im lucky tt i have a super nice supervisor. He's a nice guy, will protect us de. Haha! But always end up kanna bully by the whole bunch of us. =p

First day of work, woke up quite early. Left the hse 3hrs b4 work time to ensure tt i wun b late for work. Lolx~ Went to have brunch at bukit panjang plaza b4 reporting for work. Luckily i went to have my brunch if not i will have to sit at the bus stop waiting for a bus tt doesn't run in the morning! =x Coz i went to have my brunch so i walked to the interchange planning to take bus frm there. Luckily for me, i discovered tt 700A n 700 goes different routes. 700A is the bus i shld take coz it goes all the way to suntec. 700 on the other hand doesn't pass by anywhere near suntec! So like tt lo. Was abt 15mins earlier. Collected my uniform, changed n started first day of work. At first quite blur. Not sure abt the pricing and the positions of the many different designs of clothes. Of coz things got better by the end of the day. Standing 10 hrs was really so tiring. Lolx~ Jason was there the whole day to 'monitor' us. Lolx~ Actually he was just there to crap with us n entertain us. =x Overall still ok ba, just a bit sianz coz we still dunno each other ma.

2nd day. [wed] Was suppose to report for work at 10am, but ... hehe =$ u noe la hor. Stupid me, forgot to put my phone back to general mode. So there wasn't any alarm! N when jason called me, i chldn't hear the phone. So too bad. =x Woke up only at 12 with a start knowing that something terrible has happened. Called jason and he asked me to rush down by 2. Didn't eat anything n rushed down. So damn tiring. For tt whole day, i din touch any food or water at all. =x Too tired to think abt food. Furthermore, i din have much cash on me. So din go for any breaks at all. I guess my face tt day was as black as justice bao's, lolx. Jason was kind of like scared of me. =x Wahaha! BUT!!! Tt idiot ask me to go station in the shop lo! So damn bored sia inside. He still dare tell me its slack. Stupid sia. The first day i stood there like a fool. Customer ask me anything i oso dunno. Then the full timer has to attend to every customer. =x Feel sry for her la but not my fault ma. I dunno anything! How to help? Just hang and fold the clothes nia. At first i thought i will be there only for one day but .......

3rd day. [thurs] Jason asked me to report at 11am. Was punctual. Not too bad, hehe. Then the usual things lo. Clear hangers, serve customers, replenish stocks etc. Oh ya, Anthony came down to look for me. Haha! So nice of him! But being the bad gal i forced him to treat me lunch. =p $6. The meal was nice. But there wasn't company coz he had to leave early. So i ate alone lo. Still ok la, not tt i nv eat alone b4. After my super full meal, went back to work slpily. =x THEN tt stupid AUNTIE ask me go stand in the shop!!! Wah lao. I dun wanna fight with her so i just say ok lo. Actually i can dun listen to her one lo. She not in charge of me ma, i only listen to jason. He nv ask me to go then y shld i go? But ok la, i just go lo. 2nd day in the shop was more enjoyable. Coz im more familiar with the things there le. But the gal .... we nv tok la. Jason went throught the things i have to noe. [He stupid la, tell me the wrong things -.- MANAGER somemore] Haiz, then things happen. I was suppose to knock off at 9pm but coz i had to stay in the shop i can't leave until 10pm. So there were some miscommunications and i stayed. [With pay or without pay? I dunno] Nvm, 1 hr only. But the next day[Fri] the same thing happen. I very angry lo. Tt AUNTIE asked me to go stand in the shop again. Then i can't leave early AGAIN. Haiz, in the end cannot go meet the ISAN members le. OT another hr again. [With pay or without pay, i still dunno. According to company policy, no OT. -.-]

5th day. [Sat] Today damn jia lat. Bcoz of me Jason n tt auntie almost quarrelled. =x Haiz, i oso dun wan de. But i think the 2 of them cannot work together sia. Auntie ask me go into the shop n help then i go lo. When i went in they were filming some variety show. -.-" I think i was caught in the camera sia. SianZ. Then Jason came in ask me y im inside. Then he went out to negotiate with the auntie. Haiz. Then like tt la. Kanna sandwiched in the middle so tong ku. But heng in the end the auntie nv touch me le. So i stay outside lo. At nite jason treat us drink ice milo [mac de] Wahaha! He so nice right? But he still owe me a meal coz he forgot abt me when he treat them drink milo on fri nite!!! Lolx~ At nite he drive me n kai fa hme. Haha! So nice of him. =p This kind of supervisor go where find?

6th day. [Sun, last day] Finally last day of the dano sales liao. Actually i quite like tis job la but if i continue i wun be under him le. Haha~ So i chose to try out another job. Selling creative mp3 at the airport. LOL. I know this sounds crazy but im willing to try. Nv go in b4 ma hehe, can go explore explore. Anyway, packing was ok, quite fast actually. [Last time sabina packing can pack until siao. lol] Ard 11+ jiu go off le. Took 700A back to bp. As expected when i rch bp i got no bus hme liao, so i tried walking hme. Wah seh, really very long sia. Haha! But it was fun. Walking home alone on the streets, feeling the coldness of the nite. Blasting music into my ears. Long journey it is but i really luv it. Haha! It took me more than an hr to rch home frm bp. Haha! Anyway last day liao ma, no work tml so can stay up until dawn oso no prob. =p

Time to slp bye~ [20th sept - 25th sept]

The above was typed long ago but only managed to complete the entry now. Haha~ Sry. =x

last day of freedom

2005-09-20T16:23:00.000+08:00

Hmm, tml start work le. Haiz. No more maple, no more going out n no more skating. Hope i will be able to work well with them.

I dun wish to admit that wat my sis say is the truth. Maybe it is the truth maybe it is not. But frm wat i see things now, she is half correct. Haiz, cannot leh.

Mumi pestering me abt my mp3. =x Told her its with wenxi. Lolx~ Sry wenxi! Use u as a shield. Hope u dun mind. Haiz, after the 6 days atrium i'll miss u like siao! tC wor, sick must rest more. Yest nv tell me earlier i pei u go see doc today ma. Haiz. Then we can spend one more day together.

Hmm, late liao. Shld i go slp le. NiteZ ppl~ tC!

GONE~ 1:23AM

mid autum fest

2005-09-18T16:48:00.000+08:00

Hmm, coninue abt yest. Left wenxi hse at 3+. We took mrt down to jurong. On the MRT got this stupid indian guy blow wenxi's hair. Dunno for wat. Siao de lo. So disgusting. Wanna slap him ar! Idiot!!

We had our lunch at kobayashi [as planned]. =) But was quite full sia. Haha~ Coz i ate a little at wenxi's hse le. Her mother asked me to eat de. So after having quite a tough time stuffing the food down my stomach, we went up to the rink to take a look. Saw JJ, shawn and some other isan memebers. Quite a lot of them were there. Hmm, then we talked to them awhile jiu went down le. Nth much to do. Just walked ard and waited for time to pass. Wanted to play pool but many ppl leh. Haiz. So we just sat outside the rink to see see lo. Once in awhile wenxi just lie her head on my shoulder to catch a bit of slp. Lolx, we are crazy ppl.

Left jurong at 6+. Wanted to catch the 7pm show ma. On the bus he called. We no fate la. Haha. I here he there, he here i there. Nth to say lo. Anyway i've decided not to go deeper. Frnds are still the best. I thought thru a lot of things tt leads to this final decision, so i wun regret. =)

Reached home watch tv. Then 10pm on my com wanted to play maple but i fell aslp while waiting for the internet to connect. -.- Haiz. I wanna train my mage de. Still at 30 sia. Haha. The john's quest haven jump finish. So sianz diao.

Woke up only at 5.30pm today. =x Almost 20hrs. Lolx! But expected la, really very tired sia. Haiz, but i tues start work le cannot go out n play with them le. ='( By the way, ZHONG QIU JIE KUAI LE to all. =) Hehe, got eat mooncake ma? Enjoy wor. =p I luv eating mooncakes. But i drink very little water so always get sick. Lolx!!! Notti me. =P Dinner ate yam. Lolx~ So nice! Mami cook it with sugar n salt. So soft n sweet. Yummy yummy!!!

Hmm, wanna go play maple le. NiteZ ppl! tC!

GONE~ 1:48AM

Great great nite!!!

2005-09-17T03:29:00.000+08:00

Wah lao, i think i become bad girl liao. =x Haha~ U'll noe y in this entry of mine. Now at wenxi's hse typing this entry. Lolx~ She needs to slp so i wait until she regain her full energy lo. Haha! Anyway, last nite went skating as usual. Went to meet wenxi at CP for 'lunch'. Ate pastamania. Nice! =) [Although i always complain i have no $$ but i always eat the gd food. =x] Pm came to meet us after i finished my 'lunch'. Then we took MRt down to jurong lo. Lolx~ All so slpy. Like 2 zombies walking beside me. =x!!! Hehe, jking la. =p I slpt the most la! Hehe~ Most song one! Slpt at 6 till 12+. Nowadays so easily waken up by calls n sms. Lolx~ Gd ba. ^^ At least i wun slp like pig n be late. =x Ya, then went to meet wenxi lo.

Pm n me went to jurong 1st coz wenxi wanna go hme slp. We reached there ard 5+? I think so, forgot liao. [stm la] Many ppl were there lo! Sianz. Din went in. Shawn, JJ n branden jio us go arcade. We go lo. Watched them dance. Lolx~ Not bad sia! Hmm, then after tt they went to play some 'stupid' games n we left. Went up. Crowd still there. Sianz! Stood outside n watched them lo. Nth to do. Talk talk abit. Then ard 6+ went in. Skate a few rds then they resurface ice. Haiz, the ice damn rough sia. Skate a bit only. Learnt my back skate. Still fail. -.- ='( Nvm, try again next time! Wenxi got it, i believe i can too!!! =)

We left at ard 9.30pm. The rest already left le. We walk walk ard jurong coz we planned not to go home le. Was deciding where to go then condrey called say they at k pool. COOL!~ [Tt was wat i thought in the 1st place] We ended up standing down there listening to the songs lo. Lolx~ Ya, so after pool they went for a movie. One more chance. Wenxi n me decided not to watch. Haha. We just hang ard talking, reading, listening to music and slping lo. Wait for them to finish watching their movie. By the time they come out, we almost dead liao. LOLX! Jking la.

We followed them to wherever they wanna go lo. Haiz, really felt damn extra for a moment. Lolx~ Anthony was the only one turning back to check whether we are following behind. So we took our time to walk, at first wanted to disappear de but decided not to. Then tt stupid ANTHONY hid behind the wall! Wenxi screamed so loudly n made me jump!!! LolX~ She was saying smth abt us being extra n tt stupid anthony was there. Then she scream n scream n scream lo. Haha~ I just stood there trying to feel my heartbeat. Haha~ She really scared the hell out of me sia. Followed anthony to JEC. Hesitated at the door. Lolx~ Anthony managed to persuade us to go. So we went lo. We din regretted our decision. =D It was so fun! Hehe^^ We drank dunno wat liquor + coke. Damn strong lo. After a few cups i ccannot make it le. Haha! Actually im awake just tt my body feels heavy esp my head. But i like it. =p I get to act high n do all the crazy stuffs. Lolx~ We had great fun outside 7-11. Damn shiok!!! Haha, 1st time in many many yrs i really enjoy myself so much lo. Me n wenxi were making so much noise fooling ard. Haha. The rest leh? Anthony the big head. Haha, he has to go ard looking after those siao ppl. [Tt includes us. =)] Rong xing was the 1st to get drunk. She really is drunk lo. Lolx~ N she kpt playing with the bottle caps. So funny!!! =D Anthony was following her wherever she go lo. Haha. Then we were the other 2 headaches. =p Tt wenxi kpt leaning on me n we kpt falling! Haha!!! We sat o the floor, lied on the floor n do all sorts of funny stuffs. When i lie down on the grd it was so damn nice. Coz my whole body is relaxing. But tt stupid anthony pull me up again n again! =( Haha, but i guess we were really 2 notti monkeys. =P Hehe^^ But i tell u, it was damn FUN!!!

We changed location to clementi de 24hr coffeeshop. They ate something while we just watched n crapped. Haha. Then JJ and the white shirt guy[i forgotten his name =x] sent the 2 gals back. Rong xing and vanessa. Steven left shortly after. So left the 3 of us lo. [Anthony, wenxi n me] We talked n crapped. So much fun!! He's a nice person to talk to. ^^ Then after dunno how long, the 2 of them came back. -.- Dunno for wat sia. Lolx~ JJ left soon after without bidding us gd bye. [So rude =x tt's y i din wanna disappear juz like tt in the beginning] Then we sent tt white shirt guy home b4 we[A,WX n me] headed down to cck 24hrs coffeeshop. Lolx~ On the cab we sang songs. =) Nice feeling!!! I nv once sang on a cab, i guess we were all really HIGH! [not drunk, but enjoying the fun] We continued our chat. Long long chat. Chat all the way till 8.30am. LOLX!!!!! Cool sia. He's such a nice person to tok to lo! Din want to leave de but he has to go meet his lao po. WAHAHA!!! So me n wenxi sat ard at the bus interchange n talk lo. We talk talk talk until we decided to walk to her hse. Passed by kranji. Long long time nv walk tt path le. So many memories. =) Pass by the main gate so qiao pm was standing at the door. [This pm is diff frm skating tt pm. Both my sec 3 n 4 classmates la. Hehe^^] Stopped for a short chat then went off le.

Now at wenxi hse lo. She slping. Lolx~ Have to wait for her to wake up b4 we head down to jurong [AGAIN] to eat kobayashi. Nice!!! Lolx~ But see whether she can wake up or not la.

Long long entry finally type finish le. But it means happy times are over too. =( I really nv regretted joining ISAN. It's such a great CCA!!! LUV IT!!! =D=D=D

Moody day

2005-09-16T20:25:00.000+08:00

Haiz, yest very sick. Cough flu n fever but no one cares. Anyway was suppose to go watch movies de but din go in the end. In the end still no fate ba. Haha~ Anyway just stayed at hme play maple, watch tv n eat lo. Haha! Getting fatter!!! So sianz. Nth better to do. Reading comics now. Book 8 le. Ha ha.

Today slpt a lot again. But im alright le. =) Woke up fresh although i chld't really slp well last nite. Fever gone, flu gone. Hehe^^ Happy happy!!! But wenxi sick. =x TC wor!!! =D I go ur hse take care of u want? Hehe~ Free maid =p Just finish toking to her on the phone. Today very sad, so dun bear to part. Lolx~ We talked for hrs lo! Talk until 4am then she finally go slp. Haiz, tml sure slp in sch de. =( Now 5:15am le. Not slping yet. Think awhile more ba. Haiz, dunno y today so moody. Play maple oso sianz. So i quit lo. Just tok on the phone n did my blog. Lolx~ I noe ugly la, but i chldn't make it the way i wanted it to be. Will explore again in future. Photoshop is so fun! =p Anyway, today went out for the meeting. So stupid. Haha~ Just sit there wait, then talk a bit jiu go home liao. -.- Together we have 1 indian, 2 malays n 4 chinese. Cool erh? Multi-racial.

Step into the hse kanna scolded liao. -.-" My phone bills lo! I dun understand. Haiz, i nv tok on the phone tt much ma. Where got $111 so much?! Then hor only $40 is incoming free. Sianz lo. Haiz, i really nv tok tt much ma. Usually i tok to wenxi only, n i always ask her to call me. Haiz, i dunno la. Nag nag nag, watever la! Confiscate my phone lo. I oso nv use de. Nobody calls me nor sms me de only wenxi. Haiz. But is my phone bill ma, only i use. So must be me lo. Haiz.

5:25am le. Shld log off liao. NiteZ~ -GONE-

Sick AGAIN

2005-09-14T17:48:00.000+08:00

Argh! Feeling so terrible. Sick again. Wah lao, nowadays very easy jiu fall sick le. Haiz. Weak la. My parents say is becoz i go ice skating lo. I remember the 1st time i went i was oso sick then next day. =x But tt day was becoz pm forgotten her jacket so i lent her mine then i was so cold tt i fell sick. But yest although i din wear my jacket, it wasn't tt cold ma. Haiz. Suan le. Hope i get well soon ba. Coughing n sneezing is no fun. =(

Stayed at home n slp the whole day. My throat felt better after i woke up, last nite was really =S. But i still stayed up the whole nite n chiong my maple. =p At 1st wanna chiong until 30 de but quite slpy so pop down on the sofa n slpt at 6:30am. Woke up at 2+ look at my phone, no sms. Was abt to close my eyes my phone rang. Excited, i open the sms. But sadly, it wasn't him. It was the other guy asking me if i was free. Din reply him n went back to slp. Woke up at 3+. Went back slp again. Then 5+, 6+ finally woke up at 7. After tt just eat dinner n watch tv lo. Went online at 8.30pm. Had problems connecting to the internet. So fed up! All becoz of tt STUPID COMPUTER lo. I seriously wanna go n slap tt idiotic bro of my father. He con us sia! Fix such a lousy com for us! I think all his softwares n computer parts pirated de lo. KNS. When the com is on, our wireless got prob. None of the com n lappies can connect to the web. But when my sis n i use our lappies, nth happen lo. All tt computer's fault. N for ur info its just a few mths old! WTH.

Haiz, 2:43am le. Can't slp. Dun feel like slping. Wanna torture myself to death. I watched the tv n they say if one dream tt one is dead, one will die. I dunno whether its true or not leh. I wanna try but i just can't control my dreams ma. Oh ya, last nite i dreamt of jaren. Lolx~ An old frnd of mine. ^^ He's a nice guy but i think taken le. *s0b s0b* Lolx! Jking la. =p

K laz, go read comics le. Maybe will slp soon ba. Tml morning gotta go to sch watch movies. Maybe can see him too? Haha~ Watever la, leave it to fate ba. Anyway i dun think he has any feelings for me lo. Im always the one disturbing him wor. Tt's all ba. ByeZ~

GONE~ 2:48AM

3-in-1

2005-09-13T15:57:00.000+08:00

Fri 9th sept - Sat 10th sept
Haha, today super happy. Meet wenxi in the evening n we went to subway da bao. Lolx~ After tt went to meet ISAN ppl at jurong. Haiz, i nv go skate. =( Anyway, they were having dinner at coffeeshop so me n wenxi just join lo. We ate our subway! =D But tt stupid wenxi, eat so little in the end im the one stuffing the cookies into my stomach! Expected lo, cannot finish. Wenxi la! Wan buy 12. At 1st she said 24!! *fainted* Anyway after dinner they wanted to go for movie so we just join lo, nth to do ma. Hmm, in the end they changed to kbox. Not too bad. Really enjoyed myself there, although i dun really noe them tt well. To tell u the truth, that was the 1st time i went kbox with ppl i dun really noe tt well. Hehe^^ But they were frndly. =D In the end i kpt holding on to the mike. =p Wenxi even said i sang the best! Wahaha~ Dunno true or not la. Hmm, guess wat? I got myself drunk again. -.- Half drunk to be exact. Dun care so much. But i like the feeling. Like floating. Hehe^^ But after tt jiu suffer le. Shld have drank more n made myself vomit then not so xin ku le. We sang until 3am then went to void deck tok tok. Hehe~ So nice. In the end wenxi mom kp calling so we have to send her home. Then i ard 5am reach home lo. Come back feel so terrible so nv play maple jiu go slp but can't really slp. Kp waking up n waiting for time to pass. In the end woke up at 7am play maple. Hehe. Play till 8.45am went to bath etc n go out eat breakfast. So nice!!! Dunno how many yrs nv go out eat breakfast as a 'family' le. [Although only have mami n ying ying] Then went market n go buy mooncakes. Hehe~ So nice leh!! Went home wanted to slp but only managed to slp 1 hr jiu kanna woke up by phone. Haha~ N guess wat? My phone was on silent!!! Imagine tt! Haha, i dunno wat u call this but its not the 1st time le. Last time i wanted to call him, i take my phone n he happen to call. Haha. Not once, not twice but many times lo. Hehe^^ Anyway back to topic. Ya, so we talked awhile then he ask me go back slp but wenxi sms me n dun let me slp! So i bo bian have to wake up lo. Called him n we talked awhile more. Then after tt go play maple le. [Wah lao, this entry damn long] All in all, i really enjoyed myself. I wanna go again! But damn ex. Hmm, im really happy. =D Thnx!
Oh ya, forgot to mention smth. It's jin hui's bday!!! [10th sept] HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my pri sch best buddy! =D

Sun 11th sept
Today is 911 wor. But i nv do anything. Slpt whole day until 7+pm. Hehe~ I pro. =p Aiya nth much. Tml got class outing! Hehe^^ Ice skating wor. =p Hope my day will be a great one tml!! Tt's all, niteZ!

Mon 12th sept
Hehe not a bad day. Woke up at 11pm. [Late] Went to bath, dressed up n ran down to take bus. On the bus he called me. Hehe~ Din expect a call but he called. ^^ Reached jurong just nice 12pm but still nobody yet! Except jason. Then we talk talk abit lo. Slowly they came in one by one. We went to LJS to eat. [Getting quite sick of it liao, everytime go there eat the same food] Halfway eating, he arrived but we nv tok much he just went up n i just ate my lunch. Hmm, after tt jiu not gd le. In the rink i see him from far, playing ard with my class de gals. Haiz, i guess he just treat me like all the other gals. No special meaning. I dunno leh. I even saw him putting his hands on shimei's waist!! I nth to say. Dun wanna see, dun wanna hear. TT's just him ba. Always luffing with gals. Im just another normal gal. ZH asked me, "wat's ur relationship with him?" I was quite shocked. But i gave it a thought n answered "frnds la". However, who will noe wat the ans i wanted very much to say? Haiz, i dunno la. Im confused. Izzit bcoz of wat others say tt affected me or izzit my heart? I have no ans to this. Im so confuse. Like wat vanessa said. "U NEVER noe whether he likes u too" Yea, indeed i dunno n i nv will noe. I watch him say "I can send u home" to vanessa n thought back to the time he said tt to me. So i guess he sends everybody home. Its just a habit of his. Haiz, i dun wanna think le! Go play maple. ByeZ~ Not going to slp liao. Time is crawling, i m waiting.

Anyway i got to try out pool today. Haha! Not as easy as it seems, i still nd more practice. Next time who wanna play pool jio me ar!

GONE~ 12:57AM

Isan membership card

2005-09-09T21:41:00.000+08:00

Hehe~ I design de card. Nice ma? Gimme some comments to improve on it ba. Thnx! =D

Wat shld i do?

2005-09-09T21:30:00.000+08:00

YoZ~ Back to blog. Hmm, now the time is 6:13am. Lolx~ Suppose to be slping la but since no work so nvm. =) Hehe~ Woke up at 4am to chiong maple, but playing alone is so boring. =( Haiz. But at least i lvled le. Hehe. A few more lvls to job adv! Yeah!!

Yesterday stayed at home the whole day. Just din feel like going out. 1stly i dun really have anywhere to go, 2ndly there isn't anyone who can accompany me so... like tt lo. On wednesday was suppose to go work de but bcoz i listened to some ppl n quit my job, now im jobless rotting at home. Haiz, i dun blame her the job is seriously not suitable for me. Wat im pissed of was wat happened later on at nite. Sianz. Dun wanna tok abt it sia. Ppl just cannot understand how i feel. Nobody ever stands in my position and think in my shoe. Haiz, suan le. I oso dun wanna care. Do wat u wan ba i oso cannot force u. Yes, im quite angry with u but i guess i shldn't have forced u ba. Haiz, i dunno la. Dun wanna think.

Anyway i recieved zoey's present le. Thnx wor. =D Dun worry la, its not ugly. As long as is tu di make de i'll like it. =) Thnx so muchie!

Hmm, just now something happened to him. Haiz, i dunno wat i shld do. I dunno wat to say to cheer him up. Haiz, can someone teach me? I guess im really useless. I cannot make ppl happy. Ppl ard me will only feel sad coz i spread my sadness ard. Haiz. Suan le. Hope he cheers up ba, but i think very hard lo. Tt stupid gal la! Wanna slap her sia!! Play play play, go study la bitch! Studies so lan liao still wanna fool ard. Haiz. Now he sad i oso sad. How to cheer him up? Lets hope time can heal his wounds ba. Haiz, i dunno la! Go slp le. NiteZ~ tC!

Post deleted...

2005-09-07T16:08:00.000+08:00

Yea, i deleted the previous post. I guess i was just so stupid to type that. Lolx~ Ok, now that im happy once again ...... Ming tian hui geng hao!!! Today sucky day. ='( Dun wanna tok le. Gtg slp liao. NiteZ~ tC! [Very short erh?] =P 1:08am liao la! Tml wan go sch de leh!! Still nd to collect photos! SLP!!!!

Happy day

2005-09-04T15:27:00.000+08:00

Hehe^^ Life is getting better and better each day. =p Today went out with wenxi. We went for job interviews. Got 2 jobs. 1 is 'outdoor marketing' [ppl telemarketing i outdoor marketing.. lolx] the other is sales de lo. Pay still ok ba. Acceptable la although my last job's pay is better. Hmm, the outdoor marketing de i think wun stay for long ba coz the pay is not stable de. If i get ppl then got $$ no ppl no $$. *sob sob* I guess im the kind who always gets $0. =x Hehe. Try try ba. The other is sell clothes de. Work at atrium for 6 days got $300. But 1 hr $5 nia. Hmm, nvm i'll still work hard! =) For the $$!!! =D I hope i wun gif up easily. Planning to work non-stop for 2 whole mths. Lolx~ A bit impossible la, but i'll try to earn as much as i can. Hehe^^ $$ minded. =x

Tml gonna celebrate grace's bday. We going swensens! Cool er? Hehe~ Haiz, but getting fatter n fatter le. ='( Lolx~ Nvm la. Neng chi shi fu!!! =p But i dun really like westmall's swensens. Their food not as nice ba. I think causeway's one better leh. I dunno la, bday gal makes the decision. Gonna go down to raffles city to get her present tml morning. Then go down kap to pop by video easy to visit ziling and loan the initial D vcd. Then maybe go fotohub wash photos ba, see he choose finish liao or not lo. Haiz. So ex! Tml gonna be a long day. Afternoon still gonna meet them at westmall then after tt go imm see jolin. [Not i wan de la... haha] Busy busy. Sad thing is nobody gonna pei me in the morning. Haiz. But nvm la, having time alone is fun! Peace n quiet. =x

Lalala, im bored. Shld slp early, if not tml cannot wake up i die. Today i bought smth. I dunno y i buy but i just bought it. Lolx~ No other meanings just see nice jiu buy. Dun tell u wat i buy, hehe tt person will noe la. Shhhh...... NiteZ ppl! tC~ Im happy with my life now. =D

Oh ya, my papa bought me a printer cum scanner cum copier. Cool hor! Haha, now i can print things frm my lappy le hehe^^. No nd transfer my files here n there le. So happy!!! =D=D=D Haha=DHehe^^Hoho=> Lolx~ nth to do. Sianz.................. Wanna change my layout le coz i think the page got prob, everytime oso hang de. Hmm, maybe go start a bit 1st. Hehe^^ byeZ!~

End of Sem

2005-09-02T16:33:00.000+08:00

Cool! So fast end of 1st semester le. Hmm, overall i think i really did very badly in sch. Promise to change n will try to change. I hope next sem will be a better one for me. =D I guess i really have to change my attitude and everything. Hmm, last day quite ok la. Just tt i missed morning lesson AGAIN. Ok, my fault coz i didn't hear my alarm ring nor my phone ring. Haiz, pig la!!!

Today wenxi's bday, we going out to celebrate tml. =D Haven seen her for a long long time. *mIsS hEr LoAds*

Yest went out with pm. We talked a lot. I thought a lot. Haiz. I dunno leh. Dun wanna think. But recently i feel so gd. Lolx. I dunno??? I guess there is really something lacking in my life. Hmm, but i dun wanna think. I scared i think too much. I scared that i'll fall too deep n end up hurting myself. I dun wan that to happen again. The past experience was too painful. I cannot think!!! Im happy with the way it is now. =) I dun wan any changes, unless it is changing for the better la. Haha! But impossible la. I know it. Xian zai bu shi hen hao ma?

Im looking for a job now. Wanna earn a lot of $$. Hehe~ But i dun really spend them on myself. Haha. Got la, but very little. I luv seeing my bank full and happy. ^^ Tml going job hunting. =) Tired le. Going off, byebye. NiteZ~ tC!

'family day'

2005-08-29T08:50:00.000+08:00

Just woke up by a call. Luckily he called if not im gonna slp like a log until tml morning n fail all my tests. Well, i was supposed to wake up earlier but a stupid guy kp KICKING me to wake me up. Becoz he is so damn irritating n i hate ppl KICKING ME LIKE TT i slpt on. To make him pissed off. What the hell. U wan me to KICK u to feel how its like to be kick? Stupid sia.
Today is SUPPOSED to be family day. Yeah, supposed. Haha. Mami n my younger sis went to the zoo. I dunno abt tt stupid guy, n im not interested to know. Obviously we r not a family coz im not invited nor is my elder sis who is enjoying herself somewhere. Well, this is wat i call family day. Slping at home while the others go enjoy themselves. Anyway i dun gif a damn la. I rather go to the zoo myself. Hmm, but it has been a long time since i went to the zoo maybe someday i'll go there visit myself ba. Anyway, mami was KIND enough to buy KFC back home. I ate a drumstick. My fav! =D Haha. Hmm, oh ya tt stupid younger sis got mami to buy her ANOTHER BAG!! Wat the hell. Tt is like her 5th bag of the year!!!! ARGH!! Not fair! I wan new bag! New shoes! But who's gonna buy them for me? Myself lo. I admit my bank a lot of $$ but i just dun bear to spend them on myself. ='( I WANNA WORK!!!! Holidays coming. Gonna work hard again to earn lots of $$!!!! Hehe. Maybe i'll get myself a new bag n shoes when sch reopens. But if no work, no $$ then forget it man. Just make do with wearing thr same shoes and carrying the same bag. The shoes are alright. I bought them just b4 sch starts but my bag....... it old n dirty. Lazy to wash la. Haha! I think cannot wash oso. The strap mouldy liao lo.
K laz, gtg study for test le. JIA YOU!!!! byeZ~

terrible week

2005-08-27T17:11:00.000+08:00

Hmm, this whole week was quite a bad week for me. In suicidal mode. Went out drinking until late nite. Not eating anything for 3 whole days. Not having any real meals in 5 whole days. Roming ard the island at night not wanting to go home. Everyday ard midnight then reach home. Hmm, but now feeling better le. =D I guess the worst are over for me. I hope they're for u too. Hmm, i guess there's nth much i can do. I did my best. The rest are up to u le. Just hope u cheer up and stop thinking of tt stupid idiot. Haha~ Not really in the typing mood now. Cya! NiteZ~

i must pull up my socks!

2005-08-13T17:24:00.000+08:00

COOL!! Im so glad that i still have many frnds who cares abt me. =D Thnk u all so much. HEhe^^ But sadly to say im still not feeling gd at all. Haiz. I dunno y, but i detest going to sch. Lolx~ Maybe coz im envious of my sis who has graduated from poly and can shake leg at home. So shiok lo. In sch i just can't find the mood to get high. No more laughters and smiles. Only tiredness and tears. People say in poly u will make more new frnds but it seems like im an alien in the sch. Someone who talks less and stones more. Im trying hard to participate in grp conversations but i'll soon gorw quiet. Haiz. I guess im back to that old me. The me who doesn't like to talk. But i very much want my old life back. Always laughing and playing ard wif dharsh and co. Those were my happiest moments of my life. All the laughters i'll nv forget. Dharsh! I WAN U BACK! I wan to see ur cute little face giving me stupid looks when i tell u stupid jokes. Haiz. I guess time can never be turn back.
Anyway, sch gonna end in a few weeks time. HURRAY!!!! But tt also means that i have lots of final projects to do! ARGH!!! So damn busy. Mountains of unfinished work waiting for me to touch but all i do is play maple. I shld really kick myself. Haiz, but i dun really gif a damn. Lolx~ Lecturers dun chase i dun hand up lo. =p Ok, im a bad gal. I wanna change. I wanna change. I wanna change. No more maple. No more maple. No more maple. Ok. I hope i achieve my goal. From today onwards, i must finish all my work before the deadline then i can enjoy my maple. Yeah!
Going into study mode. ByeZ~

BITCH

2005-08-06T15:48:00.000+08:00

Suck suck suck!!! Fuck off idiot!!! I seriously can't take anymore of ur nonsense u self-centered person!!! I dun give a damn if u see this, im just so pissed off with u!!! Stop acting innocent lo when u are like damn CUNNING inside. Wat's the use of acting? To gain people's sympathy? Ha ha. Then u did it, im the bad guy. I like to scold people. I m a petty gal. So wat? I dun care!!! All you think abt is urself!!! I really can't tolerate u any longer lo. To think i have been swallowing all ur nonsense. If it wasn't becoz ur frnds were there and there were many people around, i would have gave u one tight SLAP!!! NO! Not just one, one isn't enough. U deserve 100, 1000 or even more! I dunno why am i that stupid to agree joining the same cca as u. Ok, maybe i thought u changed but u didn't. In fact, u became worst!!! Ya ya, u may think u r the most wonderful gal in the whole wide world. I dun give a damn! U suck ok!!!! N get this straight into ur head!!! U can show it ard if u wan, i dun mind. Coz im just stating FACTS. Do you know the meaning of 'facts'? Go check up the dictionary. And please stop boasting abt how gd u are! So wat if u can skate better and can win me? Watever lo, its not a competition or watever. U wanna win i let u win la. BIG DEAL. Dun act act and say u wanna catch up wif me after one round so that you can help me. HA! Help me. When i shouted for you to slow down, did u? NO!!! U IGNORED ME! Ya ya, u can give all sorts of excuses, i just dun care. I dun wanna listen to all your craps lo. And for heaven's sake, frnds are not for u to 'play ard with'. U need help u call dun need just throw. Wat kind of attitude is this?! I dun think that's the way to treat a frnd. Unless im like a trash to u then tt's FINE. Oh ya. So wat if u have a bf? BIG DEAL? Lot's of other people oso have lo! I know u r happy that u 2 can last for 6mths. But u noe wat? I hope ur bf sees ur true colours soon and dump u! Haha!!!!! I'll be the 1st to laugh. I admit im bad, but that is exactly wat is going on in my mind! Anyway i dun need guys. I can survive on my own. Who needs guys anyway? Ho ho. Im not done yet. Im gonna write a long long entry and make u cry!!! Ha ha ha!!! I dun care if u get to read it or not.
One more thing, please stop flirting bitch!! U start all the sweet talks to guys ard u and when they like u, u siam. Stupid lo! So childish. No wonder ur bf always jealous la. If u dun flirt ard, dun trick innocent guys into ur trap then i think maybe ur bf will treat u nicer. Ha ha! But too bad. I wan the 2 of u to BREAK! Although he's not a nice guy either but i pity him A LOT!!!! I can't imagine how he can stand u for 6mths. BUT as compared to my 2 yrs it like nth. I admit i like to help people, but u can't climb on my head like this wat. Give u one tight slap then u noe. To think i wasted one whole day in sch to help u wif ur hw. I shld have gone shopping with my sis! It wld have been much happier. Tired of scolding liao. Rest awhile. If got things to add i'll surely write more!!! WA HA HA HA HA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dead x.x

2005-08-03T05:40:00.000+08:00

YoZ im back! Haha. Sry ar so long nv write le. Busy playing games. Hehe^^ Maple story lo. It's not exactly fun but i somehow got hook onto it. Hmm, anyway not much to update. Just the normal routines. Life is bored. Suddenly everything looks so meaningless. Y shld i study? I dun wanna go to sch! =( Ok, tt isn't the exact reason y i didn't go to sch today. It's bcoz .. hehe^^ Gals will noe. Hmm, no wonder i have been feeling moody lately. =x Sry wenxi!

Toking abt wenxi, we went to orchard on sun. We went to eat subway! So delicious!! Hehe. Now wenxi oso like liao. Haha. But this weekend we going nydc most probably. Hmm, we only managed to shop at fareast. BUT! Far east alone can make our bank acc dry sia! Grrr~ I must control!! Sianz. Spent $90+. Haiz, i really dun understand lo how come just 3 pieces of cloth can cost so much. ='( Every week like tt can die leh. Furthermore im not working now. No income sia. Haiz. I MUST CONTROL.

Hmm, tt stupid guy harass me again. Sianz. Kp asking me to go out wif him. He even said he wanna come when i told him i going out wif wenxi on sun. What the. He siao one lo. Ok la, im trying to avoid him. I admit it. But if he didn't do wat he did the last time we went out, i wldn't avoid him now! The thing is, he dun think that wat he did to me was smth very WRONG!! He's crazy. I dun have a choice. I dun wanna get cornered by him in another dark cinema. NO WAY!

Oh ya, i got back my studo prod test results. Sux lo. The written paper i only got 5.5/10!!! Wat is this man?! All becoz of the stupid diagrams which i nv studied. ARGH! 5.5 leh. Its super low lo. I seriously shld kick myself man. Or flick myself out of the window. But luckily my skills test pulled my marks up. 12/15. So i will pass my overall ba. Let's hope the interview and demo turns out well.

Haiz, i feel like im suffering sia. Wanna go knock my head agst the wall. Argh! Watever. I go liao la. ByeZ~

panda O.O

2005-07-20T20:03:00.000+08:00

Oh plz save me. Haven been slping well this few days. Haiz. I din slp on sun coz i have to report to sch at 8am and im like still awake at 6am. Lolx~ So might as well prepare for sch lo. Anyway i'll have to wake up at 6am. Haha. Strange thing is i dun feel restless at all. Managed to survive through the lecture classes. I Luv the film "Red Violin". So damn nice lo!! But somehow i cld guessed from the beginning that it was his wife's blood that he used to paint the violin wif. The hair was something i nv thought of. Best film which i enjoyed the most of all the films we have seen. =D
Studio production lecture was hell man. Haha. I was like dozing off lo. Anyway i dun usually pay any attention in studio pro lectures. =x Just reading off from the slides, how interesting can tt be?
Had meeting and lunch b4 i went back home. Surprisingly papa was home, but he was using my laptop thus i cldn't do my work. Slpt on the sofa for awhile to recharge my battery. Haha. Woke up at 7pm. Had my dinner and started the topic research. Damn hard to find sia. But managed to do a timeline in the end. Quite complicated leh. Then the words so small print out le so blur. =s I tried many times but it just come out right. Then bo bian lo just hand up the blur one. I'll try to resize everything again for the next proposal ba.
Had ard 5 hrs of slp last night. Woke up at 10.30am. Quite late le. Reached sch gate at 12.02pm. =x Haha. Luckily classroom not very far away n i dun nd to climb tt stupid hill. Lol. Storytelling techniques was fun. =) Josiah n jason can really act! But i think josiah is a better actor. Haha. Or izzit actress?! =p Hmm, need to start working on my story le! But i have to do up my intro to film presentation 1st. Progressing well i guess.
Haiz, lots of assignments to do sia. Jia you!! Lolx~ Back to my umbrellas of cherbourg le. NiteZ!~ tC!!
Replies:
2 Zoey ~ Thnk u thnk u. Too bad i can't draw tt well if not i'll draw them myself. Haiz. When will my drawing skill reach such a standard? =(
2 [*aH^JiN*] ~ Haha. The artist drew quite a lot. All very cute!! But i only chose two. Hehe^^
2 SAMMM ~ I may appear thin but im not. Lolx~ I have a super big tummy too. So sad. ='( N like wat vanessa said .. "IT'S PROTRUDING!!!!!!!!!" =x But only after i eat.

mixture

2005-07-18T19:45:00.000+08:00

SianZ~ the time now is 4.06am n im still awake! =x Im thinking. Thinking back to my secondary sch days. I guess secondary sch life isn't tt bad afterall. At least i had my own gang whom i always hang out wif after sch. Haiz, there used to be so much laughters ard me but now? Everything is like so quiet. Haiz. I miss 4B. Haha. Dharsh, cherie, pei min, joan, SHAM, kok howe, wei chian, lu xin, melissa, lee chiu, jasmin and so on. Haiz. Class used to be so fun! So noisy. Lolx~ And i miss SHAM! =x Hehe^^ Miss the owl hoots he always calls out after me. The little talks we always had in class. The questioning and answering of maths questions. Haiz, i just miss him so much. =( And of coz ppl from other classes too! Grace! Wei pei, jolyn [juni0r], lina, pei ching and many many more. Too much to list out le.
I miss ppl calling me owl. Lolx~ I miss my classmates. My band mates. My pri sch mates. Oh ya, I saw yiin ying at the MRT station on fri!!! She haven changed much still so pretty. Hehe. We talked for a while then i go meet wenxi le. Haiz, so many ppl come and go we can't really kp in contact wif everyone. It's impossible! But im glad i have wenxi. But recently she has some probs. Just hope she doesn't do anything silly lo. Im trying my best to help but there's nth much i can do. Haiz. Feel so useless lo. But im still here to support her. But i think she's feeling better le ba. =)
I miss my kor. Although we were not very close at that time but im really happy to have a kor like him. He really very zao gu wo. Got probs can go find him. Call him up and chat but haiz when things r starting to go smoothly u'll find urself coming to a dead end. Always like this de lo. I have nth to say ba.
N to tell u the truth i miss HIM a little. Haha. Now i feel that my heart is so empty coz there's no one living in there! Omg. Although luving him was a very painful process but it sort of made me feel occupied? Haha. Im talking rubbish.
WOO HOO!!! Will is on TV! MTV playing his new song's mtv. So DAMN SHUAI!!!! OMG!!! So damn COOL lo. Lolx~ [wenxi dun scream again! =x] Must go buy his new album k? Very nice wor! Cover page oso very nice lo. Im going to buy! But wait until i have cash 1st. =x Hehe. Overspent le.
So sianz. 4:38am le. Tml sure late for class again. Haha. Wun la. Coz i wun be slping long then sure can wake up. If i slp early then i will slp and slp. Haha. Best is dun slp la!
I wan JIAN FEI! Im so fat lo. My sis oso say i fat! HmMp!! All wenxi's fault! *BleahZ* Partly oso my fault la. Coz i haven been exercising for quite a LONG time! Who wanna go jogging ask me along plz. Thnx wor. K Laz End here le. So bored. NiteZ~ tC!

Happy Birthday Ronnie!

2005-07-18T17:31:00.000+08:00

Hmm, today is ronnie's birthday. Happy birthday to u, happy birthday to u, happy birthday to ronnie, happy birthday to u. =D
As u can see, i changed my blogskin AGAIN! Haha. The previous one not tt nice ba. Anyway i luv the song which is being played on my blog. Sung by Nicky Lee, a member of Marchi. So damn nice and touching lo! Haha. The MTV is nice too. =) Highly recommanded!!
Hmm, today went to celebrate ah gong & ah ma's bday. Went to the nearby coffee shop for dinner. Not too bad ba but not very filling. Lolx~ So ... im eating my supper now! =P
Yest din go out. Woke up at 3pm. Then ate and read my comics. Then as usual watched tv and did the blogskin lo. Haha. Started at ard 1? or 2? I dunno la. Then did till 7am. =x Time really flies! Haha. Then faster go slp if not kanna scolding sia.
Friday i pon skating! oppX! Walk walk ard lot 1 wif wenxi. Then we sat at the MRT there to chit chat lo. Tt si pm. Nv ans my call so i nv go ice skating lo. Haha. Ok la its my fault oso la but they dun care de lo. Ice skating is a slack cca. Haha!
Haiz, so sianz. Tml sch re-open le. So fast sia. =( Haven enjoyed enough leh. *sObZ*
Oh ya kang sheng called me today. He told me he leaving le. =x! Was suppose to meet him and cherie out de but din. =x! Haiz, suan le wait for his next visit ba. Wat to do leh?

New Blogskin

2005-07-15T20:46:00.000+08:00

Made another blogskin. Haha. Bored la. Haiz. So how's this? Lolx~ I know its kind of dull and dark but aiya can la hor? What you expect from a few hours of work only? Haha. Ok, im finding excuses for myself. It's ugly. Admit it.
Today was a happy day. Woke up at 10.15am when i was suppose to meet ziling at 10am city hall MRT station. -.-" Haiz. I feel bad but there's nth i can do. Alarm clock doesn't seems to work for me. Haiz. Buy a super loud alarm clock for me plz. Somebody, anybody? Ok, luckily i managed to rush down by 11.30pm. Ya i took a cab, cost me a bomb! Haiz, wat to do? Ziling was kind of lost so i reached there just on time. Heng ar if not she wait very long wor. [She changed the meeting time to 10.30am.] It was a great trip. =) Ziling is just so nice to be wif. Haha. Thnx! =D After tt we took 190 down to cck to find christina, pearlyn and shimei. They went to kbox. I listen to them sing awhile jiu go off le. Took buses down to united sq. My stupid sis told me the wrong bus num, then it took me so long to reach there. [1 n a half hr] Might as well take MRT suan le. Lolx~ So when i finally reached there, we went for lunch together wif sis's bf. Ate subway for the 1st time. Not too bad. =) After tt accompanied sis work till 9pm. Lolx~ So bo liao. We ended up buying so much lo. Coz must push sales ma. I spent over a hundred dollars just like tt! Haiz, xin tong. ='( Plus i still went to buy this OP skirt lo. Total spending for the day is $170+++. -________- Nth to say. Lolx. Im officially broke. Im not going to bring my ATM card out ever again. This is so horrible!!! =S But at least we had fun. =D Hehe. Reached home quite late. Haiz, so bored. So late liao, i go slp le la. NiteZ~ tC!

i finally cut my hair!

2005-07-14T16:50:00.000+08:00

Woo hoo! Finally went to cut my hair today. Haha! Out come not too bad ba. =p Many ppl say nice. I find it quite satisfactory. =D Went to find wenxi today after my studio production 'class'. Still din get to try VM but i think i noe how le. Thnx to pearlyn for teaching me. ^^ Anyway so damn tired today. Din slp much. Haiz, becoming a panda le. *sObZ* I wan mei mei dun wan chou chou. Haha. Ok, im crazy. =P
Hmm had delifrance for lunch. EXPENSIVE lunch. O.O Spending lots of $$. Haha. Mon we ate Jack's Place. Its sux. Im not going back again. Ha! Delifrance not too bad. Luv tt onion soup. *pOoT* hehe^^
Hmm, so damn sianz. Tml gotta go SAM[s'pore art museum] Then gotta go PS buy rice paper. Then gotta go down to Novena find jie jie. Then dunno whether meeting wenxi after her sch or not. Haha. Busy busy. Haiz, transport fares sure very ex de lo. ='( Haiz. Tt's all ba. NiteZ~ tC!
Here's a pic i took. Sry for the bad quality of the pic. My hand shook not my phone cam lousy hor! But i resize the pic le so u can't really see how bad it actually is. Hehe.

Tests results

2005-07-13T01:18:00.000+08:00

Alright. My tests results. Sianz. Actually not really satisfied lo. Haiz. Guess my class is too clever for me le. Lolx. Jia you ba!
Lets start with the one which im most proud of. Hehe^^
Photography handling test - 22/25 [there were 5 pics we have to take n suprisingly i got full marks for 4 of them but got only 2 marks for the 1st pic. SianZ lo. So sad sia. =( At least gimme a 3 ma then i pass tt pic de. But still im happy. Hehe. Full marks leh. So proud. =P] BUT! There were lots of others who got like 23, 24 lo. 25 i dunno have or not.
Storytelling techniques test - 9/10 [this test is quite easy. 5 mins can finish le. But i still din do well lo. There were like 6 of them who got full marks. N btw there was this bonus question which pulled me up bu 1/2 a mark if not i only get 8.5/10. Haiz, even ppl who u think can't make it got full marks. Wat can i say? But im still quite ok with it lo.]
Art and design - 7/10 [ok, i din study for this test. I din even noe there was a tests! Lolx so nvm. There lots who got 8, 9. 10 i think oso have. 7 i think im the only one lo. Sianz diao. Haha. Nvm, i din study for it lo.]
Intro to film - 8.5/15 [This was a killer paper sia. To me la. There were a few failures but im so lucky tt im not one of them. I only read through half of the txtbk tt's y i only got half the marks. Lolx. Suan le lo. Im stupid la. So many ppl get like 11.5 lo. Ziling got 13.5 sia. N all they say is they nv study. Stupid lo, nv study get so high. Anyway quite a lot of ppl get 8.5 oso la. Haha. Our class average is 8.8 lo. Highest amg the whole lvl. Cool~]
Still yet to get back my studio prod test. I think oos cannot make it de la. Haiz, next week got studio production skills test le. Wish me gd luck ba.

Study Break

2005-07-13T01:01:00.000+08:00

Yea! Today is the official 1st day of my study break. At last can rest at hme le, but for one week only sia. =( Still better than nth ba.
Yest went back to sch for studio production. Quite ok ba. Tried out audio only. Still yet to try the vision mixer. Haiz. Anyway not really in gd mood yest. Maybe im thinking too much, i just feel that everyone hates me. So be it. I'll just kp quiet and stay in a corner. Haiz, forget it.
After sch went round taking photos for my assignment. Haiz, still yet to finish. Actually my camera loan date already over liao lo. Haha! Shhh~
Went to causeway pt to find wenxi. Haiz, i dunno wat to say sia. Just hope everything will be fine ba. Haiz. July is a very bad mth. Everyone seems to have lots of probs. Sianz. Stayed over at her hse since today no sch ma. Walked her to sch in the morning then come back home. So tired. *yawn* I wanna slp. Later going out again. I wan go cut hair! Haiz, so sianz. Maybe changing my blogskin ba. Haha~ So sianz nth to do. If got time i'll make one ba. Just did one for zoey on her bday. Hope she likes it ba. I like the pic i did, but the layout a bit normal la. Will try out lots of different patterns. Hope i can soon produce smth really outstanding. Haha! Wait long long ba. So sianz. Go off le. ByeZ~

Raining in me

2005-07-12T06:51:00.000+08:00

Well well well. Im so angry wif myself. I hate my life. I hate everything abt myself. Haiz. Sometimes i just can't help it. I didn't mean to be like this. U think i feel gd? No! I dun! I feel guilty too! Its not tt i purposely dun turn up, its just tt i ..... haiz i dunno wat to say just hope tt u ppl wun condemn me bcoz of all these incidents. I really didn't mean to. Haiz, i guess its no point saying anything now. My life is ruin. Ruin in my own hands, my own behaviour. Haiz. Its all my fault.
I hate ME! Everything abt me. From head to toe inside out and ard. Haiz. Im so stupid. My brains are useless. They can't think. All they do is slp, slp and slp. Haiz. I blame no one but myself. Just let me be. Leave me alone. Im born to be hated. No one likes me. Hate me, hate me! Tt's wat u shld do.
Nth else le. ByeZ~ Feel so so moody. ARGH! -raining day-

tests nightmare

2005-07-02T16:29:00.000+08:00

Yeah! Its friday again! ^^ Today's ice skating session is so FUN! Hehe. Fell twice today. So jia lat. But its fun! =) After that had LJS with Pm & co. Lolx~ They're nice peeps. =D
Anyway this week quite sick la. Haha~ Monday was my birthday but .... haha~ Went to see doc and got an MC as a present. Thnx. Haha! Anyway thnx everyone for the sms-es! =D And of coz not forgetting the cuttie little cowiie my class gave me. THNX! =D
Tues din go to sch. Stayed at hme n slpt the whole day. Woke up to eat medicine and went back to slp. Din complete any of my overloading hw. Sad.
Wed had IS as usual. Sianz la. Can skip this.
Thurs is always so fun but tiring. Hand a camera handling test for Photography class. Erm not too bad ba. Just hope the pics turn out fine. =x Studio prod was awesome. Tried out 3 roles. Tape Op. Inscriber. Assistant Director. Cool erh? Hehe. 4hrs of lessons flew past very quickly.
Haiz, so damn tired now but i must finish my Super Size Me by today. And hopefully my reflections and oso my IS issues paper. Haiz. So many tests. ='( Mon got studio prod written test[i hate this], tues have storytelling technique re-test[ i missed it on tues], wed IS issues paper[800-1000 words], thurs rest[whew], fri intro to film test. Sianz!!! STRIVE FOR VICTORY!!! [my pri sch's motto =x!] I CAN DO IT!

Zu wo sheng ri kuai le [its a song] nice!

2005-06-26T15:09:00.000+08:00

oh great, fancy falling sick on the day before my birthday. So sad sia. ='( Haiz, having fever and cough but now feeling better le. =D Hehe^^ Few more minutes to my birthday!! Can't wait.
Anyway fri i went ice skating. Im joining it as a cca. Cool erh?! Hehe. But feel kind of lonely coz i only noe pm. But pm has her own frnds too. Very tiring and very cold. Hope i can skate as gd as the seniors soon. I'll jia you de!!!
Anyway its past 12 le!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! Actually im born only at 5+am wor. HAha~

INITIAL D

2005-06-24T17:14:00.000+08:00

Cool!~ One look at the title u shld have guessed it ba. Hehe^^ Yup! I went to watch initial D wif my darling wenxi today. Lolx~ And okok show lo. But i like the cars. The characters oso very cute! Esp the fathers. Haha!
Anyway today's studio prod change lecturer le. Not too bad ba. Today i played the floor manager role and learnt a bit of the vision mixer. Totally Cool! Haha. Im enjoying more and more! =D Photography class was just going through our photos, nth much. But i think i'll have to find him to ask personally lo coz i was the last person n he went through mine really BRIEFLY. -.-
After sch called wenxi and rushed to meet her. I ran all the way out of sch lo. So stupid. In the end the bus came so late. Waste my energy sia. Saw qing feng on the bus. We talked a bit lo. Nth much. Anyway meet le wenxi we went to buy tickets. Bought the 7.15pm de. Haha. As usual we had LJS for dinner. Haha! Our fav place. =P The show ..... hehe^^ go watch urself ba.
Recieved wenxi'x present today. I love it! Hehe^^ its a rounded puzzle. So cool! But only 60 pieces, i fix wan lo. Haha.
Haiz, one week jiu yao past le. So sad. Next week all the tests starting le. Haiz. Many projects to do too! N my presentation!!! Umbrella of the cherbourg............................... haiz ....
Now so late le, tml sure cannot wake up de. ='( Dun wanna be late again but it seems like i have really really really poor time management sia. Haiz............................................ Kill me la.

Last week

2005-06-21T09:09:00.000+08:00

Hey guys!! Miss me?! Lolx~ Long time nv write le. Haiz. So busy lately. Lots of things to do sia. Now let me update u ppl ba. Hehe^^
So fast 1 week gone le. Haiz. Anyway on 13th June monday, i went for a BBQ party. Quite enjoy myself. Saw many ppl who i have long lost contact with. Of coz i took many pics wif my phone! Later upload le let u all see. Hehe. So long nv see my honey le. He grow up liao wor. But still the same la. Haha, childish and notti!
Last week was quite busy doing my photography assignment. You see, my photography skills sux like dunno wat sia thus i need more time to do my assignment ma. =x N i just got back the photos i took during workshop. Really sux sia! Half of the roll are all under exposed. -.-" So sad!!! Haiz. I reall really wanna become a photographer leh! Haiz.
[14th June, tues] Had storytelling techniques. Nth much lo, just the usual stuff. Haiz, still yet to finish my hw. Leonard asked us to write a letter to the past. Sianz lo. Purposely wanna dig out our sad memories. ='( Y can guess who im going to write to le ba? Of coz he wun get to read la stupid. Haha!
In sch had all the lectures as usual. Meleani showed us a film called "The Usual Suspects". Totally BRILLIENT!! But i think its a restricted film in s'pore. Or izzit not? Anyway if any of u come across this film must watch wor! Very nice!
[15th June, wed] IS day. Issues class was boring as usual. Haha~ Dun like tt diana chee. IAC was much much much much much much BETTER!! So fun!! Haiz, projects coming in le..... Busy busy busy...
[16th June, thurs] Photography class in the morning we went round the sch to take pics. Lucky the workshop assignment isn't graded. If not ... =x
Studio prod was fun. I was the cameraman for the day. Of coz there were others too la. A total of 3 ppl. It was a nice experience, but i made some mistakes here and there. =x Sry! I was just too shock when the table fell over that i forgotten to continue on even when a mistake was made. Haha. But it was really funny. Everyone stunned there didn't noe wat to do. You shld have seen Vijay's n Wind's expression! Damn funny. Hehe^^
[17th June, fri] Happy Birthday CHERIE!!! See i so gd! Nv forget leh. Hehe^^ But so sry didn't plan anything for u. =( Really very sry! Morning had Art and Design. Was late for class. =S! The amazing thing was i slpt at 8.30pm the night b4! Haha~ See how tired i m. *Yawn*
Afternoon class was intro to film. 3 ppl presented today. Very gd sia! Now i stress le. Haiz. My english not that POWDERFUL leh. Cannot make such a gd presentation sia. Haiz. Gonna present on week 7. The Umbrella Of The Cherbourg. Quite a nice musical. =D
[18th June, sat] This week can't go out le. Have to finish off as many of my hw as possible. Friday nite stayed till 5+am buay ta han le. Haha~ Fell aslp on the sofa with the lights on, com one and fan on. =x! And of coz i got a BIG scolding the next morning lo. Sat night stayed up again. Managed to complete most of my reports. Chatted wif ryan till 6am. Lolx~ Had quite a nice chat. =) Dun anyhow think ar!
[19th June,sun] Stayed at hme n did my work again. Nth much la. Haha! Anyway gtg le. Later come back and update on today ba. Haha. A rather brief entry. So sry! In a rush. =x

Swing mood swing

2005-06-12T17:13:00.000+08:00

Oh well. Long time nv update le. This few days just so moody. No mood to update. Haiz. A lot have been happening. Im feeling all pissed off. ARGH! Everything seems to be going wrong! What the hell. I just wanna get out of this stupid world! Get out of my stupid life. What else can i do then? Everyone hates me. They dislike me. I might as well go kill myself man. Nobody on earth will care. My family wld i guess. Haiz. It's always like this. So vexed. Y can't everything just work well? Y izzit tt when im happy wif my family something is bound to happen between me n my frnds? My frnds r giving me probs. Sch is giving me probs. EVERYTHING IS GIVING ME PROBLEMS!!! Now i detest coming online. Dun blame me. Im just so sick n tired of facing ppl. I just wanna be left alone.
At first i was very happy today coz i got my mp3 player. Yea, my dream. My family has been extremely gd to me. I got my dream phone, my new specs n a mp3 player. They all cost quite a lot. Almost a thousand bucks. Im very grateful. Very very happy. But my frnds gif me troubles. Make me so frustrated. Gif me a hard time. Make me so angry, so sad and so lost. Haiz. I just hope everything will get better. Im just so sick and tired. Hearing ppl scolding one another. Hearing ppl saying sry, its all my fault n started scolding each other again. Haiz. Its driving me crazy. I start to question myself whether they r my frnds. I admit that i was stupid enough to join in the quarrel. Too stupid to think! Haiz. Now i dunno what to do. My emotions r in a chaos. I dunno how to feel. ARGH! Watever!
Anyway, it nv pays to be kind. Guys r just so damn blockheaded. Wat for treat them so gd. Stupid lo. Now i wanna do hw oso no mood le. Haiz.. swing mood swing ......

Tired? NO!

2005-06-05T19:45:00.000+08:00

The time now is 4:29am. Wenxi just went to slp le. So here i m doing my hw alone. Haha! Hardworking? NAH! NEVER!! Simply bcoz i wasted too much time slping and din bothered to finish my work. Haiz.
Btw i have one GREAT news to share. I GOT MY X800 TODAY!!! [Shld be yesterday ba] CooL eh? Hehe^^ Yea, its ex but i got it anyway. =p Plz dun tell me how lousy it is, im happy wif it. =D On fri i was complaining abt seeing 2 guys carrying X800 in sch and tt afternoon mami called and said wanna go get my phone. Lolx~ Coincidental? Haha. We did meet up after my lessons but we din manage to get the phone. 1stly, my mami forgotten her IC, secondly i didn't have my charger wif me since im going to trade-in my phone. We went AKIRA instead. Almost got an mp3 but din coz i found out how lousy it was just in time. Haha! Went home empty handed tt day. ='( But one gd news! Im starting work on tues! Morning tt is. Haha~
This afternoon, we went to westmall n got my phone! YEAH!! N we bought 4 mr midnight's storybooks with the author signing for my younger sis. Haha. After tt we proceeded to beauty world for dinner and 'shopping'. N of coz i shared my joy wif wenxi 1st thing i got my phone. Haha! She's jealous. Hehe. Lalala. =P
Just now had a nice talk wif ziling. We found out abt each other quite a lot ba. ^^ I feel GREAT!! I feel even more GREAT wif wenxi accompanying me late into the night doing hw. I guess she wasn't used to it ba. Haha~ Ok, la stop here le. NiteZ~ tC!!
Replies:-
2 zoey ~ my course is film sound and video so wat u think my course is abt leh? it sounds interesting but tough wor...
2 jay ~ haha .. u too ^^

2005-06-02T16:33:00.000+08:00

Yo! Long time no blog again. Haha. Sry la, busy busy. =) Lolx, dun ask me what im busy wif coz i oso dunno! I dun seem to get any work done at all. SianZ~ Wat the hell is wrong wif me? =(

Anyway, went out wif wenxi on sunday. We went to westmall. At first suppose to study at mac but wenxi dun wanna eat mac, thus we went to KFC to try the new filet burger. I felt damn cheated sia. Its like the burger is so damn BIG tt i can finish it in 2 bites lo. -.- After tt went shopping around. Wenxi bought me a sketch bk. THNX! Its so nice!! I fell in love wif it at first sight. After tt we went to the library to study coz it was raining cats and dogs outside. In the library, we did our work but there was this little boy who liked wenxi so much. Haha! Then wenxi read books to him while i do my hw. Then we went to food court eat dinner. Shopped ard n bought 2 "Yellow" t-shirts. We even went to swensens for ice-creams. But i tell u, westmall's swensens sux! Funny things happened while we were 'enjoying' our ice-creams. But i wun mention them. Tt's abt it ba.

Mon, sch as usual. Had lessons at 8am in the morning! At first i wun be late de but didn't noe morning got so many ppl lo, all the buses full sia. Luckily the ngee ann shuttle bus come in time sia, if not i wan dan le. =x Sch was ok. Lectures all the way. Quite slpy. After tt went to meet huijing. Went for interview lo. Anyday wasted. Haiz.....

Tues. Went to meet wenxi after sch. We went to bpp for lunch n more shoppings! Haha. Ok, we're rich. Lol. Jking. Wenxi is, im not. Bought 2 more shirts from ice lemon tee. Big hole in my pocket. One black and one green. Yea, GREEN. =s Wenxi pursuaded me to buy so ... blame her! Hehe^^ Ok la, quite like them. =) Went rd looking at glasses too. Wanted to buy one pair de, but when i asked how much it costs to make my specs[my degree very high] the ans i get were like $300 and $400. DotZ. -.-" Forget it. Saw a really nice brown glasses which matches my eyes but haiz, frame alone cost $100 le leh! ArGH!!

Wed. Today lo. Went to sch early to meet ziling and yating to clearify some questions. Went for lessons after tt. Today i met many ppl in sch. Alicia my pri sch frnd n kC my net frnd. ^^ Didn't really stop to talk coz i was in a hurry to my class. After class went to the library wif yating to watch rear window. A very old film. Quite ok ba. Left the sch at 8pm. Haiz. Day gone again. Then went to westmall to shop for sis's shoes. Reached home only at 9.30pm. Sianz. Missed my show sia. ='( So tired now. Wanna slp leh but my hw how? AH!!! Wish me luck. Tml have photography and studio production. Ok, stop here le. NiteZ~ tC!! 25 days left..... hehe^^

Thnx =)

2005-05-28T16:51:00.000+08:00

Hmm, im fine le. Thnx. =D Today slpt through my whole day. My jay called me at 11.30 but i was still in bed. At first wanna go out but too tired le. Hehe^^ So we talk on the phone lo. Lolx~ I had the phone balanced on top of my ear n spoke slpishly. LOL! Sry. I had my eyes close too. Hang up at 12.30 n went back to slp. =x Finally got out of bed at 3.30pm. Hehe. Cooked lunch for my family then online lo. So sianz la. Did a bit of sketching, on my own sketch book. Not the sch one. The sch's sketch bk i bought le but wrong size!! Stupid me. I bought the A3 one then the lecturer say wan A4 or A5 de. So stupid lo. Grr~ Waste my $$. But still, i can do my own sketching n drawings ma. Hehe^^ But mami will KILL me for tt. =x!
Haiz, such a boring day. Nth much to type le. NiteZ~ tC!!
Btw just now watched feng yun. So nice!! Must catch tml's[or shld i say today] wu jian dao too!!! Dun forget!!! Hehe^^

leave me alone

2005-05-28T06:51:00.000+08:00

Haiz. Feeling moody right now. Just reached hme. Back frm sch obviously. Very thing is so very wrong! My home, my sch, my frnds.... Wat the hell is happening? No one is happy at hme, neither m i happy in sch. I dunno y. I noe im quiet n i dun tok. But seriously i find that i dun belong there. Its gd to be following them as a whole grp, jking n talking. Somehow i still end up alone. I miss Dharsh who's always making me luff n helped me to speak up more. N of coz my gang of family members. However, times r diff. Maybe its only the beginning. Maybe im thinking too much. Dun blame me. Blame PMS. I seriously dun feel well. Im tired. Tired of all the nonsense ppl ard me gif. I'll rather lock myself up in my room, blast the music n slp. Nv to wake up again. Haiz. Im sry. I noe my classmates r all trying their best to not ignore me. I guess im just not doing my part. Im no longer the talkative idiot i was wif my sec sch frnds. Im back to sq 1. Quiet n all. Haiz. Im really a moody person. It's alright. I'll be fine again soon. The period of the mth is always so frustrating. ARGH!! I need some time alone...

Yeah!

2005-05-27T12:19:00.000+08:00

Hmm, on 24th may, finally got to meet pm, cherie n joan. Dharsh was sick so she cldn't turn up, if not it'll be a HAPPY FAMILY REUNION. Haha~ Ok la, i noe its not even new yr yet. Hehe^^ But it was so great to be together again. =) We took some pics wif cherie's phone. Think i'll upload some ba. Hehe. We went to have dinner at 'Let's eat'. Long time nv go le wor. After tt shopped ard n even went to the library. We load the pics into my laptop n did some catching up wif one another. Hmm, really enjoy it very much. Hehe~ Looking forward for another meeting. This time with Dharsh too!! ^^

Wat was cherie trying to do?! HELP!!!!!!

Outside popular. Haha, it took many times to take such a nice photo. Haha.

1st week of sch...

2005-05-27T11:47:00.001+08:00

Hmm, 1st week of sch ending soon. Tml is friday! Overall still like my course ba. Haven really start to regret yet. But somehow i think we have gotten some lousy lecturers. But god is fair, we have some super gd lecturers too. One gd example, leonard yip, our advisor. [So far he's the only one. =x!] Had his lessons on the 1st day of sch. Not too bad ba. He is teaching us storytelling techniques. It wasn't as simple as i thought. Some parts of the lessons just left a BIG question mark in my brain. Guess im a little slower in understanding. =x

Anyway, we had IS on wed. IS stands for interdisiplinary studies. There r two modules for that. Issues n IAC. Wed had issues. Sad to say its just like jC's PW or PI. Haiz. First lesson did introduction as usual. Wat else is new? But its was quite a short day. 12 to 3. N she let us off early lo. Np's lecturers have this habit of letting ppl off early. Haah. So i went hme after sch n started reading my book.

Today, thurs, we had photography n studio workshop. These two lecturers r so ... =s The photograhy lecturer left us to slack for 2 hrs. DOt. Our whole class went to a cafe n eat, drink n slack lo. Haha. Ok la, we did try to figure out how to use the camera which we were told to do. Anyway, just din really like tt teacher. The studio leacturer was better, he did teach la but somehow he's like unsure of wat he's teaching n even unsure abt operating some of the 'machines'. =x Overall still not bad la. Got to see how a real studio is like, all the lightings n the cameras. SO COOL!! Hehe. Jealous ma? =p

Tml got art n design n intro to film. Hope i wun get bored to dead. =x! Hehe. Tired sia. Stop here le. NiteZ~ tC!! Sry for not blogging for so long ....

Reply taggies...........
2 jAy ~ haha, sure watch la. watch wif u ok? happy?
2 [sOckz]] ~ the 7 eleven de hello kitty magnets lo. No more le. ='(

Hello Kitty Magnets

2005-05-24T14:31:00.000+08:00

Hmm, yesterday internet sot diao so cannot type my entry. Sianz diao lo, kp d/c-ing de. Quite fed up. Grr~ Think the router spoil ba. Duno ???Yest was a super happy day. Haha! Went k box sing sing wif wenxi. We sang sang sang until so shiok we decided to wait until the ppl come n chase us out. =x But dun have leh. So strange. We left ourselves at 7.15pm. Went to shop shop ard lo. Lot 1 is still broing although i haven been there for quite sometime. Haha. Oh ya, we bought a BIG packet of LAYS n RAFFLES[izzit? can't remember le] n we ate n sing happily. Haha~ But at the end of the singing session, wenxi lost her voice!! Omg! Hhaa~ N i ate more than her leh. =x Hmm, got a new magnet + 2 more wenxi gif me de now i have 19 magnets le!! Yeah!! 12 more to go!!! Who willing to sponsor? PLZ!!! I really want them!!! *begs*Hmm, went hme at 8+ to catch the 9pm show on channel U. Such a boring show. Duh. -.- Thought it wld be nice. Cheat me. =( Haiz. Tml start sch le. Scared. How? Quit my work le. Finally!! Yea, im not working anymore. Not even on weekends. Think i shld concentrate on my sch work lo. So today is officially my last day. [not really la, holis will go back] Worked at boutique as usual, but stupid me forgot the keys. -_- So julie had to come down personally to open the door. =x Sry! Gd news is tt i finally got to see her again b4 i quit. Haha. But bad news is tt she didn't gif me the magnets she promised to gif me. *sobZ* ='( I went to 7-ll just now. But no more magnets le. Yest was the last day. Haiz..... Where m i gonna get the remaining 12 magnet to complete my collection? =( haiz...........................Ok la, stop here le. Tml got sch, yet to print my notes yet. =x Haa~ Go print now. Bye!! NiteZ~ tC ppl!!
Replies:
2 dream.er ~ haha, i call in the middle of the night can? hehe^^ miss ya too! =D
2 [[sOckz] ~ super shuai!! Wahaha!! My frnd say he looks like JJ.. haha! Dunno leh. But i saw one jay look alike at LJS tt day wanted to go take his num de but didn't. Wasted ar!!! oppX! hehe^^ tC!
2 xIN ~ no wonder gif me tt face. =x hehe.. tC~ Dun tire urself out wor! =)
2 ggaabbbbyy ~ thnx =) I link ya too k? cYa~

Slpy head

2005-05-21T20:02:00.000+08:00

Hmm, have been falling aslp on the sofa these days. So damn tired. =x Hence, haven been updating. Hmm, guess im staring to feel the stressness in poly. Ha!
Thursday went swimming at jurong swimming complex wif david. =s It was ok ba. Fun but sometimes boring. Haha! After tt we had KFC. His treat!! Haha~ Wanted to try the curry chicken but dun have leh. Stupid! Grr~ Haha, i noe it's kind of stupid to eat KFC. Bleah. Fancy eating such fatening food after a gd exercise. Haha!
Saw lu xin when i was on my way hme. Hmm, still the same old tired face. =x Guess jc is really stressful n tiring ba. tC hor!!

Today went to sch for orientation. Saw peimin there too. Haa~ My class was still alright ba. Quite dead at first but when it come to games we're always winning!! Yeah! Great team spirit yea? Hehe^^ I was even carried by a them. Omg! =x Scary experience. =s But happy one too, haha!!! Shuai ge carry me sia. OppZ!!
Tues sch term start le. Hope everything will go on fine till i graduate 3 yrs later. =) K laz, sis wanna use le. NiteZ~ tC!!

Long time no post

2005-05-19T14:03:00.000+08:00

Hmm, haven not been posting for quite some time. Sry! Quite busy playing Gunbound. Haha~ Gunbound is back!! Lol. Its just so fun!
Ok, yest was working at boutique. Quite quiet lo, coz raining ma. Sort of sianz. Stuffed a cappuocino[dunno how to spell] kit kat down my stomach. Nice. New flavour. Had Mac for dinner. Haa~ So sianz la.
Finally got my pay le. Stupid. Drag for so long. Ppl get pay on 1st we get pay on 17th. -.-" Toking abt 17, someone's bday coming! Mine too. ^^ Hehe~ [hint hint] Alright i noe most of u dun catch it but my darling sure will catch it de. =P Hor?
Ok, gonna stop here. Gunbound's too attractive. GTG!! NiteZ~ tC!!
Kkz, reply taggy time!! ^^
2 jAy: haha, u no nd remind me la i'll sure watch de!! haha!! but i guess i can only see u act in my dreams!!! wahaha!! dun always think tt u r the real jay lo. Plz la. haha! =P

crazy entry

2005-05-16T14:53:00.000+08:00

YEAH! Freed from working! But not for long. Haiz. Tues gotta go boutique work le, but at least its much better. Today 8+ kanna distrubed by julie[boutique auntie]. She sms me n call me coz she'll be alone today. But i gotta work at CP ma so can't help. We toked on the phone for awhile then sms shu xin. Hmm, she found herself a new job at ajisan. But somehow she dun really like it. She say the boss like dun really like her. =x Actually i think the problem lies on her. Seriously, she tok too much. Who wanna empoly someone who talks more than doing work? Im not trying to condemn her or watever just tt i find tt she has some kind of illness ba. Maybe her family isn't as perfect or watever but there's surely a reason for her behaviours. Sometimes i feel kind of irritated n at the same time pity her. She's one who's always facing everyone wif a brave front but behind our backs she's actually very very weak n small. I dunno wat to do or how to help, but i think she really need some help. In fact quite a lot of ppl, who i noe of, dislike her. Personally i dun mind having her as my frnd but sometimes its like .. not right. Something abt her is not right n i feel uncomfortable abt it. I dun really noe how to explain this feeling, but it makes me wanna shun away. It making me go crazy!! Have to teach her tuition but dunno how to face her. Omg! Wat shld i do? Argh!! Its really driving me crazy. =S
=x How did i wrote so much abt her? Haiz, i think my work is really making me so stressed up. I have been eating more n more nowadays. =x Just hope i dun gain weight ba. Haiz. Eye bags getting heavier n heavier, dark rings getting bigger n bigger. Lolx. I think im crazy. No crazy ppl will think they're crazy so im normal! Lolx~
Sianz ar. Sis out for camp, nobody pei me tok tok at night. So sianz. Listen to music n sing to myself. Boring. Wat can i do to past my time? Slping is not smth i feel like doing now. Burning mid night oil late into the night is smth im used to le. Haiz. Im all messed up. ArgH! Alright enough le. If i haven nth to do i'll slp. NiteZ~ tC!
2 zoey: sry la. i change lo. But over here i see really very nice ma.
2 sOckz: thnx wor. u lots of care too. kind of worried abt u leh. if u wanna break down just break down, dun need to force urself to be strong hor. i see u smtimes happy smtimes depress i oso dunno wat to do sia.
2 xIn: u tC too! jC life getting more stress-up erh? must jia you wor! but dun stress urself out too. tC!!

Vexed

2005-05-15T16:35:00.000+08:00

Haiz, so sianz. Work again. Tml one more day. Yeah!! Can't stop being happy tt im leaving tt place!! Haha. BUT gss i still have to go back. ='( Sianz.
Haiz, i miss my darling jay. Every week we'll at least meet up once. This week coz of my stupid work nv get to meet him. Haiz. Jay darling, pei chen wan hug hug!! =( Where r u? Nv call me or sms me. So sad sia ...... *sObZ*
Haiz, nowadays mood quite bad again. Guess im just too tired. Hopefully i can get to rest at hme on mon ba. Haiz. Really need to slp. Yest slpt quite early @ 12+ but still very tired sia. ARGH!! Really really really feel like quiting. Guess i have to jian chi ba. Tt stupid boss haven issue me my salary yet!!! Its like many days late le leh!! If she dun bank in by mon, im gonna QUIT! Right in her face! Stupid JENNY FUNG. If i complain to tracy she'll be dead meat! Muaahahaha! U better watch it.
Alright tired le. Wanna go slp. NiteZ!~ tC!
Kkz, reply taggy time!! ^^
2 xIn: But purple i use for my profile page le leh. Green cannot see meh? Its quite legible leh frm wat i see in my laptop. Hmm, maybe i'll change ba.
2 zoey tu di: Ok lo. Waiting for ur gd works. Dun let me down!
2 cherie aka dreamer: Hmm, dunno leh our timetable different. Now sch haven re-open better plan it fast wor, but u schooling then holidays oso different. How? Quite tough.

Tired! ZZzz

2005-05-14T14:18:00.000+08:00

Haiz, sianz today went for work. At first din wan to but in the end still forced myself to go le. Haiz, si bei sianz lo. Today is stand counter de tt's y im so reluctened to go! Sianz. 8 torturous hrs standing there like a stone. Wat's worst? The air con was so damn freezing COLD!! Brr~ Not much people as usual thus i almost fell aslp standing!! =x! Haiz. Tml have to go back again. Sun too!! Argh! Boutique is still the best. Can sit down n do anything! Eating, drawing, reading, toking on phone, u name it. For $$ sake. Like wat my sis say," bu yang he qian guo bu qu". So i drag myself to work lo. Was really so damn tired i fell aslp on the bus. Luckily i managed to wake up just in time. Hee^^ Dunno y i nv seem to missed a bus-stop when i slpt. MRT yes, bus no ba. Hmm, k laz. Wanna slp le. So damn tired. NiteZ ppl! tC!!
p.s. Got another magnet to add to my collection!! 15 magnets, 16 more to go. Hmm, if anyone dun wan MUST gimme ar!! THNX!
Kkz, reply taggy time!! ^^
2 cutiesasa: haha, u enjoy urself in ij too!! jia yOu!!
2 jay darling: THNX!! =D im proud of it too. ^^ anyway u tC ar!! can't stop missing u. Hehe~ when we gonna meet again?
2 zoey tu di: yea, u shld try to make one urself. the emily the strange was quite well done. kp it up!! =) btw the real orientation is on the 20th. day camp lo.
2 xIn: sry pal, but i really dunno wat colour to put!! =x maybe u can suggest some?

NP

2005-05-13T14:26:00.000+08:00

Hmm, today had to go back to sch for orientation. Quite sianz lo, go there listen to them talk only. Haha. There was so MANY ppl! =s Ren san ren hai. Hmm, anyway we got to see some of the cca's perform while others have their booths which we didn't visit. =x Hehe. Too many ppl liao so we just went striaght out of the convention hall.
Btw, was suppose to meet dharsh, pm n ps at westmall for lunch. As usual i was late. =x! The latest in fact. Only appeared at 12.30pm. An hr late. Had our lunch n took a taxi down to np lo. Hmm, the mcs were much better than kranji's mc but somehow all of us were too dead to respond. Haa~ After the whole thing went to westmall[again!]. Dharsh wanted to buy a drink at coffee bean so i bought one too. Yuck. Taste horrible. =x I bought the ice tea. Pure valina[dunno how to spell la] taste much nicer!! Sianz. Had to force myself to finish it. =S Went window shopping ard. Nth much leh. So bored. Then ard 5pm went to shop n save buy sushi. Yum!! Bought 4. But let me tell u this, the raw salmon tasted horrible!! Maybe coz of the wasabi. But the fish is tasteless so nv buy tt. Ha! The octopus n scallop are fantastic!! *yUm* The one wif the dunno wat skin[not normal seaweed] de oso nice.
After tt jiu went home le lo. Nth much la. Wanna spend money but cannot. Last mth's salary haven bank it leh, so late liao. Haiz. Slow la. Still deciding whether to continue wif my job. Sianz. Sch reopening the week after next le. Scared? Excited? Mixture ba. Went to check timetable online. Hmm, my classes mostly late de. Have to wake up early on mon, thurs n fri. But there's a BIG break on thurs. Haiz. Really hope i can cope well n achieve great results. I dun wanna regret although IT is still my strenght. Hmm, wondering oso whether or not i shld take part in a cca. Haiz. Dunno la. So damn sianz. Today very tired. Wanna slp le. NiteZ~ tC!! N hope u like my new blogskin. Cowiie!! The idea just struck me like tt. Haha. =)

Yesterday's entry

2005-05-12T14:21:00.000+08:00

Wat the hell. Star hub cable really sux! Kp disconnecting de. Or shld i say it nv connects!! Kns. Pissed! Lousy lousy lousy!!! Now how m i going to online? Sianz! Now tt im jobless, i only pass my time using the com!! [n slping of coz] ArgH!! Irritating freak. Can't online, can't blog, can't chat. Can die leh! Sianz. Ok, enough abt it. Just hope it 'recovers' soon if not im going to do some hammering!!! Grrr~
Ok, today go work. Was late for 15mins. =x Yes, im still working but 1 day per week. U call this work? Ha. Im quiting real soon. ArGh! Working at boutique is fun. No one to disturb u. Can tok to irene[king koil staff]. She very gd de, always help me da bao dinner. Today raining heavily she oso go. So gd! Then we 'shopped' ard for awhile lo. Aiya, united sq very sianz de. Lolx~ Nth to shop. Spotted a panda desk light. Very cute!! Thinking of buying it for cherie. But quite ex leh. Hmm, c 1st ba, if next tues still there then i buy lo.
Hmm, one gd news. The hello kitty magnet dateline has postponed! Yeah!! =P Still got time to collect. Hehe^^ Jie say until 22nd. Today so dao mei. Helped julie buy the m1 top up card frm 7-11 suan bian buy my own things total $25.05. Then the stupid 7-11 staff gif me 1 magnet only!! She say:"Sry, but service items r not included." WHAT THE ****!!!!! End up only had 1. The worst thing is it was a repeated one. Grr~ If i cld get 5 i dun mind having 1 repeated one. AHHH!!!!! U noe the difference btw 1 n 5?! Its A LOT!!! Wah liew. Angry liao le. Grrr! Suan le. Next time buy liquor to drink again. Stupid!!!!

Sad

2005-05-10T17:17:00.000+08:00

Haiz, yest called hme to say im not going back le then mami not happy lo. Haiz, so i went back hme by taxi after the tv show ended which was 11pm. Wenxi's mom lend me $$. So paiseh. Reached home in 20mins time. CooL!~ Fast. Haha. But mami slp le. So i just bath n unpack my bag. Watched HBO. Then online le. Felt so sucky. Din slp until 5+am. Bad mood.
As expected i only woke up at 6+pm today. Din even feel like waking up sia. Haiz. Lied on my bed n listen to my papa screaming at me to wake up. Then listened to mami complain abt her lonely mother's day. Okok. Im at fault. I shld have come home n accompany her. Haiz. I feel bad but seriously i asked her b4. Watever. I shld have known this wld have happened. Haiz. Now everyone is agst me. Fine. Let me slp.
Finally got of my cosy bed at 7pm. Watched tv n ate my dinner. Watched all the way till 11pm. Then went out wif jiejie to 7 11. She wanted the magnet so we go buy things lo. Bought lays, 1 vodka ice passion[mine], 1 vodka wif raspberry[my sis] n a mentos mint. Got 4 magnets. Haha! The person gif us one more. So gd! Now our collection have 14 le. Yeah!! Who dun wan their magnets can gif us? Thnx!! Still short of 17. =x N today[10th may] is the last day le. Haiz. =(
Finshed my drink le. Not drunk. Argh. Watever. 4% only. Haha~ Im not tt bad ba. =P Haiz. Tml work. Gotta slp early. NiteZ~ tC!

Wenxi's hse

2005-05-09T12:21:00.000+08:00

hiZ~ back to blog. Now im at wenxi's hse. [AGAIN] Lolx~ Second time this week. Haha~ Yesterday went out wif her to queensway. Went to do my pass 1st b4 meeting her. By the time we meet already quite late liao lo. Shopped ard for bag n shoes. Tt stupid wenxi take so long to decide which shoe to buy. Lol! We turned the whole building upside down but still din manage to find a nice bag. Too bad. Lolx~ See the converse one not bad, but wenxi say too small. =x Ok, watever. Was quite tired lo. Wenxi treat me eat 2 cha ye dan. So sweet!! One of my fav food. ^^ Left the building at 6+ but reached wenxi's hse only at 8pm. =( Missed zheng ban qiao. Read my book from 8-9pm. Then watch men dang hu dui. Lolx~ Funny. Wanted to use the com but tt stupid wenxi kp occupying it! Grr~ So i watch tv lo. Her hse ma, cannot snatch frm her. Haha. Went to bed at 1? Think so ba forgotten le.
Woke up at 9+am the next morning. Had a not very nice breakfast then went to slack ard on her bed. Lolx~ She do her work i lie on her bed singing. Haha. So relaxing! =p Then help her do a bit of checking the dict. So sianz. Had a not very much my liking lunch b4 i cld finally use the com. [All the meals r bought frm downstairs] Surf ard, help wenxi so some research which she later told me not nd to do. -.- Ok, win liao. But nvm la i nth to do ma. Haha! Tt pig slping ma. Then now watching tv lo. Later dunno to go home or not leh. Tv show until 11pm. Hmm, maybe go home ba. Mami not happy wor. =( Btw happy mami day mami! Although u wun see this nor did i celebrate wif u. ='( Haiz, alright go watch tv le. ByeZ~ niteZ~ tC!

Free Tuition

2005-05-05T18:23:00.000+08:00

Today went to causeway pt. Damn unlucky ba today. Haiz. =( Was suppose to meet shu xin at 12pm but my phone died on me at 12.15pm. I sms-ed her @ 12pm to meet at ljs but she din reply. So i waited till 12.15 b4 i left ljs in search of a charger. SianZ~ I asked the starhub shop they say no ericsson's charger. -.-" Suan liao lo. Waited outside ljs. Still no sign of her yet. Sianz 1/2. Walked ard hoping to see her anywhere but to no avail. Went to the library to look too. Oso dun have. SianZ~ So i waited outside causeway lo. Waited n waited. B4 we finally peng mian i lost $10. -.- Some guy asked me to donate $$ lo. At 1st wanna gif only $5 but then no small notes, so bo bian gif $10. He even asked me to donate $20!! De cun jing ci sia. Told him i only have $20 on me, then he walked away le. Finally spotted shu xin coming out frm the MRT station at 1pm. -_- Went to ljs for lunch then proceeded to the library for tuition. Taught her algebra. She's not going to pay me. ='( Haiz. No $$. 1 hr $10 ex? Watever la. Looking for job now. Anyone has any recommandations? So sianZ~
Oh ya, i bought an orange shirt frm ice lemon tea. $20. =( Bank $$ getting lesser n lesser!!! ARGH! Ok, enough going to slp le. NiteZ~

Alright tis is it ....

2005-05-04T01:29:00.000+08:00

Ok, all the complains abt my old blog hanging here's another 1 i created. This is the 3rd one. Oh god! Hope this layout isn't too messy or smth. Actually i noe it isn't too well done but then i put in effort so just put up wif it please.
Hmm, yesterday didn't come home. 'Camp' over at wenxi's hse. Lolx~ Y did i use the word camp? Coz i only had a few hrs of slp. SianZ~ Super tired.
Was suppose to meet her at 7am but i slpt[which i din expect to] till 8am! Die~ Rushed to pack my bag etc etc n turned up only at 9am! DiaoZ~ Im so sorry!!! Seriously, i didn't intend to turn up so late!! So we went to kopi roti[again!] to have our breakfast b4 proceeding on to mac to do 'our' work. As expected we din do much. -.- Wenxi was busy waiting for tt panasonic X800 phone's advertisment to come so she can happily video it using her phone. Lolx~ Ok, we stayed there for quite sometime until a young lady walked up to our table n said:"Can u please go to other places for ur study?" Alright, so we packed our things n went home.[to my hse tt is] Ate a bowl of bee hoon then off we go!! Went back to westmall to buy some things then went back to mac for hw again. Lolx! Left at 5pm.
Went to huiwen's hse to pass her smth 1st. She was quite suprise to see me. Haha, but it had been a long time since we met. Hmm, so went to wenxi's hse after tt. We continued to do our work till 7pm. Watched TV all the way to 10pm. Due to some reasons, i had to stay on. So i called hme n begged my parents to let me stay. As usual, they agreed unhappily. Watever. So we stayed up to do continue on our work n at the same time listen to perfect 10 to catch grace's voice. Stayed up all the way till 3am. Die, tt leaves us 3 n a half hrs of slp. We played on the bed[yea, we slpt on the same SINGLE bed =x]. Haha~ It was damn squeezy i must say. Managed to fall aslp at ard 4? Woke up at ard 5am by wx's father. Chldn't really slp well. Coz wenxi was taking up so much space!!! lol! So i woke up at 6am again by my phone alarm. N 6.30am by wx's alarm clock. So we finally decided to get off the bed at 6.45am. Lolx~ I went to have a quick bath n had my breakfast.
Wenxi look great in her uniform. Left the hse together at 7.20am. Took train down to woodlands n accompanied her to sch. It was really fun. We had a great time together. =D Thnks wenxi. ^^
Walked back to interchange n waited for 963. Kns. Tt stupid bus so long then arrive sia. Boarded the bus at 8.30am n arrived at hme at 9.20am. =x! Long journey er? Took a hot n relaxing bath b4 i report for work. Was late today. 15mins late. =x Jenny was there. Wat luck. N i wore jeans when i was not suppose to. DiaoZ. Who noes she'll be there? So got a little scolding.
But overall the day wasn't too bad. Sales was $500+. Not too bad i guess.
Ok, now my eyes r really closing. Super dooper tired! NiteZ ppl~ tC!