Thursday, April 27, 2006
Omg! It has been a mth since i last blogged. Im so sry. Lol. Have been working during the 2 mths holiday. Now tt holidays r over i think its time for me to get serious n chiong my studies again. Bleah.Juz now was watching tv n a gal was crying over a guy. It really made me v pissed off. Reason being it reminds me of the time when she cried over the phone toking to me. They really sound alike. Haiz. Watever it is, everything is history. I really miss him but he's such a jerk n betrayed my kindness. WTH. Once in awhile he'll appear in my dreams. The places the songs tt reminded me of him. Haiz, they really make me feel like crying but i've promised myself not to cry for another guy. Or at least another bastard like him. Time to get over him! Grr~
Hmm one happy thing i muz really mention. The relationship btw me n my dear lao po is really gd now. At least i can see the change in her n tt she's more happy n cheerful when we r together. I promise to not neglect her anymore be it due to the busy schedule or watever it is la. I really cherish her. 5yrs of relationship isnt easy to maintain i muz say. I hope we can last v v long, until the day i kick the bucket i wan u to be beside me. =) N yesterday went to her hse to ton. Long time nv go le. Hen huai nian. Bathed, watched tv n watched her play maple. Fell aslp on the sofa until she woke me up n asked me to go slp in her room. This time we din squezze n slp together in her bed. Her mom carried the extra matress in so ... Nvm. -.- LOL. Woke up this morning at 7am when i have lecture at 8am! Lolx~ Rushed ard the hse n took a cab to sch. Sob sob. $$ gone. Haiz. Im bored.
The past 2 mths working in dano was great fun. I really enjoyed myself n the ppl there r frndly. At least they APPEAR to b frndly. Lolx. Kind of miss working n joking with them. =( Yea. N btw i got to noe this really weird guy on my 2nd last day working for dano b4 sch reopens. We kind of clicked well. So on the last day we exchanged nums lo. He smsed me every nite to ask if he can call n chat. Really weird. =S But always nv chat la. Haha~ He unlucky ma always call when i was abt to slp or m slping le. So too bad. =p N today he smsed me ard evening time when i was napping. LOLx. So i din really hear my phone ring la. Then when i finally woke up at 9pm i saw 3 sms-es. -.- He asked me if i will accept him. -.-" i was like what the? For ur info we only got to noe each other like 4 days ago?! U mean u fell in love with me during the 2 days period when we worked together? Haha! For buddha's sake! Plz wake up frm ur dreamland n stop being so despo can? I dun really mind ur age nor ur size but its like UNBELIEVABLE. I do believe in love at 1st sight but i nv nv will encourage ppl to stead without getting to noe each other well enuff. Lolx~ I hope im not insulting him or anyth. =x He's 22 going 23, finished NS n is currently studying at NYP. He has a cute dog which i simply fell in love with. LOLX~ Haiz, watever it is im sry i dun think i will accept him la. I dun really noe much abt him anyway. Plus i think the ultimate goal for guys in this kind of relationship is SEX. Yup. All guys r jerks. They only love to see we gals as their sex toys or their slaves. Hahaha! Dun try to cheat me into becoming ur slave. Im gonna b a nun after i graduate frm poly anyway. LOL. Ok tt's all for now. I wanna slp le. NiteZ~ tC! N thnx jeremy for the impt lesson u taught me i'll nv trust any guys anymore. Bye forever i dun wanna see u anywhere in sg. N to wei ming .. i hope we can remain as frnds la. Ok bye.
A tear rolled down my cheek.
Monday, March 27, 2006
Whew, finally a day for myself. Haha~ The last few weeks was busy with work n going out with frnds. Buay ta han. Today finally got the chance to blog. Haiz, lots of things happened this few days. Haiz, very vex la. Tt bastard..... alright lets not tok abt it. Everyth is my fault. Im too loose too cheap. Watever.Recently got to noe this guy on maple. He's v secretive la so he's still sort of like a stranger. Anyway he's my maple bf. HAHA. Aiya maple bf can protect u. Lol. Of coz i dun really luv him la we're juz using one another. Lol. So bad. =x
Haiz, no mood to type le la. Bye for now!
After the bastard's inicident i tell u .. im not going do anyth extra for another guy ever again. All they think is i like them. WTH?! So from today onwards i'll lead a better life. I'll be more happy n enjoy my life. I wun let tt jerkk ruin it like tt!!
To tt jerk. Dun try crawling back to me. It wun work. Although i noe u wun. But im confident tt one day ur gf will leave u. U r juz the most horrible guy on earth. I was blind to trust u so much. Bye forever.
A tear rolled down my cheek.
Friday, March 10, 2006
Sry was busy so din blog this few days. Here r the updates to wat i did.Wed 8/03
Played maple till 7am n then went to slp. Woke up at 11am by wenxi's call. Was suppose to meet her at 10am. -.-" But heng she oso juz woke up. Muahaha. Coz we were playing maple till 7 ma. Haha. So packed my bag n rushed out to meet her. Was a bit late. Went to eat brunch at kopi roti. Lolx. *memories* Went to pasir ris park after tt. Muahaha! Go tanning!! Muahaha. So fun. Took many photos but all in her phone coz i brought the other phone out. Hmm, c when we meet up again then send the photos over ba. After being roasted under the sun for dunno how many hrs, we went to bath. After bathing wanted to go blading but stupid us the shop close le. -.-" So bo bian took bus back to white sand to enjoy or dinner. Muahaha. Dinner was at swensens. Not too bad la but v full. *piggie* After tt jiu take train home le. So damn tired. Slpt on the train. *Yawn* ZZZzzz
Thurs 9/03
Working at northpt. Quite fun la. We gossip gossip. Lolx. It was great. Sales was bad =x but i seriously had fun working there. Unlike cwp.... Went back home. Suddenly feel v sad. Played maple awhile n quit le. PMS-ing. -.- Think of him. Read our past conversations n cried. I dun understand. I really don't. LOST.
Fri 10/03
Today went to changi airport to c my mami n my younger sis off. Had lunch together at terminal 2 staff canteen. The place with lots n lots of beautiful memories. Haiz. But the place changed quite a lot. I think they renovate it ba. Then got new drinks stall n mag stall. =( Even the place oso change le.... Ppl will change too. Haiz. After tt papa drove me back to bp n i took a bus to cwp frm there. Went to work in a v rotten mood. Today the whole shop was in a mess coz jason came down n shifted the clothes. Headache ar. Sianz. Im like a dead walking corpse. Wth. Tml working at cwp again. Gotta go slp liao. NiteZ~ No maple today. No mood. Juz sent him an email. Hope he'll reply. Tt's all.
Time out~ 12:26AM
A tear rolled down my cheek.
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Muahaha, the time now is 7:35AM. Cool erh? Yup din slp, coz was mapling all thru the nite. Damn sianz nth to do. No work, nobody jio me out so maple whole nite lo. Lvl 20 le. Not bad la. But not as perverted as WIND! He siao one lo. 1 week 36 lvls. -.- I 4 days 20 lvls. Haiz, sianz.Rot at hme the whole day today. Woke up only at 8:30pm. LOL. Juz slp n slp n slp. Ask my lao po out but she booked le. Sianz. Maple ba. Haiz, im craving for ice cream. WTH. Fat liao cannot eat!!! ARGH!
He still yet to call. Still no news of him. Gary nv block me le but i nv tok to him. Dun plan to. Their business will nv be my business ever again. I've already drawn the clear line le. Haiz.
Back to maple le. Nth to blog. Wanna change my skin leh but lazy la. ByeZ~ tC ppl.
A tear rolled down my cheek.
Monday, March 06, 2006
the rules: -the tagged victims list 8 different points of their perfect lover/partner, mentioning the gender of said partner. -tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment on the post letting them know they have been tagged. if tagged before, no need to contribute.Oh man, alright i'll do it. My perfect lover must have a nice body! Wahaha. Not too thin, not fat n plz have some muscles la [6 packs wld b great!]. It would be nice if he's ard 1/2 a head taller than me. Of coz he muz noe how to take care of me n dote on me la. Ah! He must not be too quiet. Abit of joker type wld b gd. 5th wld b he muz be understanding n noe when not to provoke me n when n how to cheer me up. Haha~ Tough ba since nowadays guys r so damn block headed. [Perfect lover ma, so im juz imaginating(got such word hor?)] I dun demand him to place me 1st before everything else but at least i muz noe tt i stand a place in his heart lo. He muz nv neglect me. 7th I wld love to have some surprises once in awhile. I wld hate to go for boring date routines. Changes once awhile is gd. Lastly, he muz get along with my family members lo. Very important ma. Got 1 more pt. =x V V V impt! He wld be even more perfect if he's rich. Hehe^^ =p [OMG, slap me plz]
Decided not to tag anyone. Haha~ If anyone who is reading this decides to give a thought can juz imagine tt i tagged u ba. Haha. I doubt anyone is reading this anyway. ByeZ~
A tear rolled down my cheek.
Well, sat n sun worked at CWP dano. Super tiring coz long time nv work le. Haha. Last nite came home online awhile jiu slp le. Din even play maple. Was too tired aching all over. =x Haiz, old liao. Lolx. Tonite slping early too. Erm, not really early but earlier than usual. Hehe.
Suddenly feel so lonely. So moody. So tired. Haiz. Was reading those testi my frnds wrote to me. Miss those days we used to hang out together. Time flies. Ppl come n go. We get to know each other, hang out n became close frnds n then for some reason we got seperated n nv contact each other again. This is life. I guess we juz have to get used to it. There's no forever. Nth last forever. Everything has its own expiry date, same goes for frndship and other things in life. I guess we juz have to let go of the past n look forward into the future.
Tml not gonna go out le. At first meeting gabby n pearlyn for badminton session but cancelled le. =( Nvm, next time will have chance de. =) Haiz, i feel tt im wasting my holidays like this. Slp, eat n play computer. Rotting sia. =( I wanna work! Wanna earn $$!!! I luv $$ muahaha! SianZ~
Wat to blog leh? Nth much happen. No news frm him. I think gary oso scared le. Haiz, suan le ba. Gai fang shou de shi hou jiu fang shou ba. Let this whole holiday b a soul searching period for me. Let me grow n find my real happy self. The one tt is hidden somewhere in me. I wanna change! I believe i can n i will! Gimme some time.
If one day i were to go missing .. dun bother to come n look for me .. i nd to b alone n do some soul searching. I nd some time for my wounds to heal. I nd some time to recover n gain back my confidence. Haiz. Wo kai shi fen bu qing.. dui wo hao de ren shi hao ren hai shi yao shang hai wo de ren ... ='(
Time out~ 3:56AM
A tear rolled down my cheek.
Saturday, March 04, 2006
Yest was slacking day. Slpt n slpt like a pig. Was suppose to go bowling with gab n pearl but coz of last min cancellation i rot at hme. I juz hate to c the current state im in. Argh, watever. Oh ya, maple is back to my life. Haha~ Coz my lao po tempt me ma. Bored~Today super fun. Im really happy n xing fu to b blessed with such nice frnds. (Gab n pearl) Yeah, they're nice ppl. ^^ Im really grateful to them coz w/o them my world is like so dull la. Furthermore, im really glad they accept me into their er ren xi jie. Honestly its tough to hang out in grps of 3s, but we did it n we are really happy. (I hope they are, coz i m =D) *LUV THEM* Hee^^
Was suppose to meet them at woodlands today at 11:30am. But okay, i admit im late again. Haiz, i find myself so horrible. Ppl r so willing to invite me to their outings but yet i made them wait for me. I really ought to hang myself upside down n get a gd smack in the butt. I hate myself. I know its wrong yet i do it. I know the whole truth but yet i choose not to accept reality. Haiz, im really a bad bad gal. My existance only bring ppl trouble trouble n more trouble. =(
Okay, back to today's outing. Only managed to rch woodlands at 12:15pm. Yes, a whole 45mins late! C wat i mean? I'm terrible. We took train down to raffles place for a job interview. It was a really terrible experience i tell u. The ppl there are so weird. 1st the interviewer who makes up many weird weird scenerios trying to persuade us to join her company. Tt's not all, she kps emphasizing on how their company grew frm nth blah blah blah. -.-" We r not interested la. After tt we went to old chang kee for lunch. We were quite suprise tt actually they do offer set lunches n stuffs. Cool erh? So we decided to try. The food was okay la. Gab ordered sambal squithead. I find it too spicy so i din eat it. Then gab n pearl find it not nice so the whole plate was there quite untouched. Haha. N then this auntie [she works there] came along. She look at the big plate n said. "Y dun wanna eat? So wasteful. Eat la." [smth like tt la, forgotten le] Then we were like erm.. too spicy. "Add rice la, u wan? Eat with rice not spicy le." We were like erm -.- nvm la auntie. DiaoZ~ After tt we quickly finish our food n siam le. Haha. Felt like we were somewhere in the other part of the world. Haha. I dun think i'll b going to raffles place for no gd reason unless i have to. Lol. Strange ppl.
After our lunch we went to yio chu kang. We spent the whole afternoon n evening there. Haha, cool man! =p 1st we played arcade. Then we played bowling. Followed by billard. And lastly back to arcade!!! I tell u its really fun la. The part i enjoyed most was during the shooting game we played at the arcade. Lol. Coz the game has got 3 stages n we [pearl n me] wanted to win it n guess wat? We spent abt $10 bucks on it la! U might find it little but read on. 1 game is only 40cents per person. -.- But it was damn fun. We were like so excited n kp running to n fro to change for coins. Haha. U wldn't wanna noe how much we spend altogether. *shh*
When we finally decided to go hme, we took train back to woodlands. Wanted to buy sweettalk de bubbletea but =( sadly they dun wanna sell us. Haha, no la is no more le coz we rch there quite late ma. 9+ shops closing le. Haiz, tml have to go back there again. Working at dano. Hehe then can drink my bubbletea le. =p Tell u a secret, i dun eat meals when i work. I drink bubbletea. =p They fill my stomach n is nice! Yum yum! I love pearl milk tea. My FAV!!! Hehe^^ Okay time to slp. Gd nite everybody. Tml nd to work. Gd, can earn $$ n kp my mind off him.
Thanks hy for being there for me. Haha. I muz say u really helped me a lot. Without u i wldn't have survived. I've sorted out my feelings n my thoughts. Dun worry, i'll be fine. Juz gimme some time n i will forget him. Thanks jie mei! WAHAHA!! =p
Time check~ 5:39am O.O
One last thing b4 i go. I lost my cow. *sobZ sobZ* The cow gab n pearl bought for me. ='(
A tear rolled down my cheek.
Thursday, March 02, 2006
Today woke up at 12:30pm. Juz in time to prepare for sch. Haiz, but dunno y i got this feeling i used to have during the old days. I dun wan to wake up n go to sch! So i took a walk ard the hse n went back to slp. I didn't set my alarm, i purposely wanted myself to slp through the whole screening session. However, sad to say, im no longer the old me. I laid on my sis bed. Closed my eyes and forced myself to slp. Minutes pass. Im still awake. My mind is working. Thinking ...Haiz, now i hate to slp coz i juz can't slp! Every night i stare at the blank white ceiling unable to slp. My brain kps working. Thinking n thinking. When i close my eyes i see him him him. All over!!! His sms-es his face. Everywhere!!! ARGH! Haiz....
Went to sch in the end. Dragged myself there. Sat quietly in a corner during class. I looked at ziling. Somehow i feel strange. I dunno y. Maybe becoz we are not as close as we used to b. I dun blame her bcoz of her busy schedule, i understand. Stoned there for a few mintues. After tt class was fine. And juz like any other normal sch days, aAB left school together.
Did a lot of walking today. We walked to opp beauty world for lunch. Korean food. Not bad but most of the food is spicy, not to my liking. Ordered smth non spicy. Rice .. rice wat again? Forgotten. Managed to finish the whole bowl although i dun really feel like eating. Nice la. Most probably will go back again ba. After tt we walked to beauty world centre then beauty world plaza, bukit timah centre and finally bukit timah plaza. Pearlyn wanted to get some brouchers for a tour to korea. Cool. I wld love to go on a holi too. But ....
At home nth much happened. Sis bf came. Watched tv n chatted on msn. Haiz. Pester hong yi for a very very long time. Ha. Sry ex-kor. Toked to gary too. I dunno wat to think n i dun wanna think. His assurance didn make me feel better neither did i feel worst. Neutral. Still as worried, still as concern. Haiz, enough of thinking gal. Time to slp! Its thurs le. So fast. Jan, Feb .. now March le. His promise? Nvm, i'll wait. No matter how long i'll still wait. Bcoz u r my most precious kor. I cherish u. I look upon u as my blood related kor but .... nvm. I'll wait. I believe u'll contact me again one fine day. *I miss U*
A tear rolled down my cheek.